How do yo make money online?

If you do make money online, what is your method? Do you take those surveys? Do you write for someone? Do you teach courses?

If you don’t make money online, have you considered it?

I’m asking for me (out of curiosity) but also just hoping to start a discussion about what’s a realistic means of making money online.

I’ve noticed that some blogs can propagate some very unrealistic myths about how to make money online, and I want to start a realistic conversation about it.

Struggles with food (way TMI)

So long as I don’t eat, I don’t get sick.

It’s only when I eat that my body starts reacting in negative ways. So… I just need to not eat anymore, right?

I had some food allergen testing done last year, but lately I’ve been thinking that I should do one of those food sensitivity tests. I don’t think the food allergen testing told the full story.

Food Allergen testing tests for IGE Deficiency, which I already knew I had prior to the test. Food sensitivity testing, on the other hand, tests for IGG Deficiency, which is a completely different Immunoglobulin in the body. What I’m wondering is, in addition to my food allergies, if there might be food sensitivities that are contributing to my headaches, muscle aches, extreme exhaustion, gut issues and so on and so forth.

As much as I know what I’m allergic too and what I really need to avoid when I’m eating, I’m also finding that I’m still having issues, regardless of what I put into my body. For instance, most days I wander around this world with a pretty gnarly headache. And I just tolerate it… as it is. I had a CT scan done in 2019 and it came back as normal, so, the doctor just attributed my headaches to stress. The thing is, though, the headache doesn’t normally start until I’ve eaten something. If I just avoid eating… I don’t get the headache. This is only small example of what I’ve been dealing with, but I think it’s an important one to note.

The doctor was so quick to diagnose me with IBD. The problem is, the majority of the symptoms related to IBD that I can find, I don’t have. No, I’m not a medical doctor, so I can’t technically diagnose myself. But, I do know myself and how my body functions a lot more than a doctor who’s seen me twice, for no more than 10 minutes each time and never done any tests.

I’ve been doing some research (thanks to various sources… in spite of Dr. Google being a scary place sometimes) and it turns out that food allergies and food sensitivities can affect the body in completely different ways. Duh. I know, go figure. But, allergy testing is ONLY for IGE deficiencies. You cannot test for IGG deficiencies at the same time. They are completely separate tests.

I am wondering if I could do some food sensitivity testing, if I could get that IGG deficiency testing done, if it might help. Even if they have small effects on the function of my body, if there’s a lot of them, or if it’s something I eat frequently, it could be causing me more harm than I realize.

If anyone reading this has ever taken food sensitivity testing, what was it like? Did you get it done through public health, or privately (through a private clinic or corporation)? Did it help?

I’ve been on a two-and-a-half year long journey of trying to figure out the root of my issues. I’ve been misdiagnosed on four separate occasions that have been proven, and I believe that the diagnosis of IBD was also not accurate. And, as mentioned above, I was never tested for it. I’m trying to do my due diligence, advocate for myself and get to the bottom of what the heck is wrong. I’m wondering if this food sensitivity testing might be a beneficial step for me.

What hurts the most…

As quickly as she could flinch, facing the anger she’d seen so many times before, he raised his arm and threw the glass of whiskey across the room, striking her in the side of the head, tearing her skin less than a fingertip’s distance shy of her right eye.

‘How about you take a long walk off a short cliff!’ he exclaimed as blood trickled down the side of her face. ‘You’re a perfectly good waste of a human life. Nobody needs or wants you here.’

She bent down to start picking up the pieces of glass that had shattered across the floor. Attempting to hide her tears, she couldn’t help but think there had to be more to life than this, that she deserved better than this. That this was the last birthday she’d spend at the helm of such a monster.

People have scars in all sorts of unexpected places, like secret road maps of their personal histories, diagrams of all their old wounds. Often times the hardest part is not knowing what we’ve been through or how far we’ve come, the hardest part is how people react. What hurts the most? I’m not sure. It’s a toss up between people not believing you, or people downplaying what happened as though it wasn’t anything at all.

That’s why people stay silent for so long.

That’s why people get away with it for so long.

Letter to a struggling soul

Dear Self,

The struggle is real.

It really doesn’t matter what others might say or think about what you’re going through, what matters is what you say and think. And truth be told, they’re not you so expecting them to understand what is happening is, in itself, a bit of a lost cause.

Remember that age old wisdom that says ‘Don’t fix a temporary problem with rash decisions’? Listen to that. You know it’s right. You know that quick thinking, or perhaps even no thinking, isn’t going to fix this for you.

The universe is testing you. And let me tell you IT SUCKS. I know it sucks. Every second of it. But, how you react, here and now, to what is happening, this will have a ripple effect throughout the rest of your life. Act wisely. Accept help where you can, give help where you can and keep going, always.

The hardest part of being in this time and place is that you don’t know when this test will end, when things will fix themselves, when things will be normal. Will they ever be normal? There’s no crystal ball to tell you for certain, all you can use for a guide is hard work and hope. Hope for a better world for you and everyone else who lives in it.

When you really stop to think about it, it’s important to be thankful for the things that you do have. You’re not starving. You’re not on the street somewhere, struggling to stay warm. You have a lot of blessings in your life that are very easy to overlook if you allow yourself to. So just remember, as bad as it might seem, you are one of the lucky ones. Because you are.

Remember how far you’ve come. Remember that this is all for a purpose. And, when it’s over, remember that you’re going to be stronger because of it. Scratch that, you already are stronger because of it. Silver linings, self, you need to remember them more often. Struggle teaches us just how strong we are. Struggle teaches us just how far we can bend without breaking. And last time I checked you were still standing, in one piece and all.

Hold on, self. I promise you better is coming. I don’t have a crystal ball, but I can feel it. Better is coming. I need you to believe that. This struggle won’t last forever. It can’t. You’re stronger than it.

Sincerely,
Me

Adventures in job hunting: Greg and Craig were impressed.

This is in follow up to: Adventures in job hunting: a hopeful phone interview.

I had a half hour Skype Interview today and it went really well. Really, really well. You know I hate getting my hopes up, but my hopes are up.

They told me that I’m one of the final three candidates. They told me that they were impressed with my credentials. They told me that I seem as though I’d fit in great in their office. I told them that I absolutely would and that, in my completely biased opinion, they shouldn’t interview the other two and they should just hire me. Then they laughed. Ahhhhh, it was a ‘you had to be there’ kind of moment. Anyways.

They also said that my present location does not bother them and they want to invest in the right employee, whether they come from BC or half way around the world. They said when they hire employees they think long-term and they want someone who’s going to help their company grow, and that if that person comes from Alberta, BC or half-way around the world, they’re going to select who they think will help them in their company growth long term.

I try to not get my hopes up. But my hopes are up.

I really need this.

I need to rant.

Someone has asked me to build and market a website (and subsequent social media platforms) for them… for free.

Fuck off.

Seriously.

I think that people mistake my desires to help, provide suggestions or assistance as a willingness to do it for them. There’s a big difference between providing suggestions and doing it for you.

If you want me to do something for you, you can pay me. Time is money, and I AM VERY GOOD at what I do, so you can pay a premium, please and thank you. And, if you don’t think I’m worth paying than please, by all means, go and do it yourself. No sweat off my back. I know my worth. I also know that proper marketing is not as easy as people think it is. So, really and truly, good fucking luck.