You learn a lot about someone by seeing how they deal with the shit that life throws at them. They learn a lot about you when they see how you deal with the shit that life throws at them.
I’ve learned a lot about the people in my life the past few weeks. Who’s important to keep around and who I just need to let go of.
I hate 2019, so far. Hate it. There’s been nothing of note that’s been good for me, so far as I can see. And even though I am well aware I’m stuck in a negative headspace at the moment (so my views are definitely skewed), I still stand by what I say. 2019 is kicking my ass.
I’m learning a lot about myself, though. I’ve learned that even when I think it can’t get worse, it can. And I’m also learning that even as things seem to be getting worse by the day, I can deal. I can deal with it so far, at least. I think that’s the most I can hope for at this point in time.
Starting over is necessary at this point. The problem with starting over is that I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know which way to turn.
If the universe were paying attention, I’d love for a sign. A sign of where to go, or who to see, what to do or who to be. If the universe is litening…