This month there are several things that have been giving me anxiety. And, instead of hiding from them, I have decided that I am going to tackle them. I may not get them all accomplished, but I am for darn sure going to try and work through them.
Things that are currently giving me anxiety.
- Applying for Employment Insurance
- Applying for independent health-care benefits
- Completing my 2018 taxes
- Finding a new job.
The list is not that long and doesn’t seem all that daunting. But, EI basically makes you commit to promising your first born child in exchange for EI payments. The form was very overwhelming and took a full hour to complete.
Also, due to my ongoing issues with my sinuses I am running into more medical needs. Thankfully, being Canadian, a lot of things are covered. But, there are still things that aren’t covered. I had convinced myself that I was going to apply for health-care benefits from a provider on my own, but, when I sat down to fill out the form they wanted a listing of all of the medicine I have been prescribed in the past year. I got scared they’d see all the times that I’ve been prescribed medication (that didn’t help), think that i am a risk and not provide me benefits. So, I clicked away from the form and have been hiding from it since.
Taxes are something that I have always had my mom help me with. It sounds dumb – I should do my own taxes. But, my mom always helped me with it every year, so, I always let her! This year, she’s undergoing treatment for cancer and is really more sick than anything else at the moment. The idea of completing these myself is really daunting. It shouldn’t be daunting, but it is.
And the job. Oh, the job. This is a frustrating piece to my list because of the fact that it really feels as though a university degree isn’t worth all that much anymore. Nevermind the actual experience I’ve been collecting over the past decade. I am pushing myself into this label of ‘token unemployed millennial’ that is making me feel like a deadbeat. I know that all I can do is keep going. But, it’s daunting.
Here’s to facing my fears and trying to get through this.