Ups and downs of anxiety

Out of nowhere last night a massive anxiety attack took over and I couldn’t breathe. I felt like I started wiping away little tears quickly to try and not let anyone notice that I was crying, though I felt that at any second I could burst out into full on tears, bawling my eyes out. The worst part of the situation was that I had no idea why.

Things were great yesterday! I had a really, really nice day. Right around the time we started making dinner though, I started feeling uneasy. Something just felt off. I think a part of me started fearing that something bad was about to happen – but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it.

That’s where I struggle with anxiety most. There are times when I get anxious and I have a clear, concise indication of what is making me anxious. Then, there are times that I get anxious where I really don’t understand what is wrong. Yes, I do have a few more stresses in my life right now than I would like, but we all have to play the cards we’re dealt in life. I just wish when things like this happened that I knew what was the cause. Because at least, if I knew what the cause was, I could take steps to try and fix it.

So many people in this world suffer from anxiety, and I know that. Last night though, last night was one of those nights where I just felt as though I was alone in the universe. I guess that’s how it goes, though. There’s ups and downs and you just have to roll with the punches.

18 thoughts on “Ups and downs of anxiety

  1. This really resonates with me! Especially the part of sometimes knowing what causes it and other times not having a clue! Thank you for being so open and transparent! Even though you felt alone in that moment, this post has truly helped me to not feel alone 🤗

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    1. It’s so easy for your brain to trick you into thinking you’re alone and you’re the only one who feels the way you do – and that’s so frustrating, am I right? Thanks for your note, your kindness and for reminding me I am not alone in this.

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  2. Anxiety is hell, I’ve been struggling with mine lately. Sorry to see you’ve been struggling with yours, I know it’s hard but try to remember that you’re not alone. Hope you’re okay xx

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  3. UGH I had one of those panic attacks a few weeks ago — I was on the phone with a client at work and just started panicking out of nowhere. Before I knew it, I had tears pouring down my cheeks. I was still on the phone so I just had to pretend everything was fine and dab my eyes. The girl sitting next to me kept asking what was wrong and I could not explain to her that it was literally nothing. Sigh.

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  4. Isn’t it weird how its like “I’m doing great.. doing great… doing great.. WHAT IS WRONG!??!” I hope this community shows you that you’re not alone, no matter how terrible it may feel. ❤

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