Out of nowhere last night a massive anxiety attack took over and I couldn’t breathe. I felt like I started wiping away little tears quickly to try and not let anyone notice that I was crying, though I felt that at any second I could burst out into full on tears, bawling my eyes out. The worst part of the situation was that I had no idea why.
Things were great yesterday! I had a really, really nice day. Right around the time we started making dinner though, I started feeling uneasy. Something just felt off. I think a part of me started fearing that something bad was about to happen – but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it.
That’s where I struggle with anxiety most. There are times when I get anxious and I have a clear, concise indication of what is making me anxious. Then, there are times that I get anxious where I really don’t understand what is wrong. Yes, I do have a few more stresses in my life right now than I would like, but we all have to play the cards we’re dealt in life. I just wish when things like this happened that I knew what was the cause. Because at least, if I knew what the cause was, I could take steps to try and fix it.
So many people in this world suffer from anxiety, and I know that. Last night though, last night was one of those nights where I just felt as though I was alone in the universe. I guess that’s how it goes, though. There’s ups and downs and you just have to roll with the punches.