I’m struggling tonight.

I’m lamenting over opportunities missed, opportunities passed and opportunities forgotten.

I’m having trouble just… existing right now. I feel bad. We all have our days, and I know this will pass, eventually. I just… wish I could avoid times like these. I wish that I was happier with where I’m at with my life.

Honest thoughts: all I want to do is crawl into my bed and cry.

I’m not even anxious. I’m just… doubting myself.

How do I make an employer see the talents that I possess could be of great benefit to them when several hundred people are applying for the same job? How do I make myself stand out? I know that in person I can stand out, but somehow, I seem to keep falling short.

I’m trying to not beat myself up. I really am. I’m just trying to figure out where I am lacking. Why do I keep making it to the final step and falling short?

49 thoughts on “I’m struggling tonight.

  1. I can tell how much this is effecting you tonight and I will be honest, I do not understand this either. You are smart, put forth your thoughts and ideas in a very intelligent and unique way, and are a all around nice person. What is wrong with these people? I really wonder if it is it is not you, it is them. Can you change the type of businesses to which you are applying? Ones with a little more understanding that you can make a difference to their company-or better yet-care that someone could make a difference. Some companies are so large they loose sight of how one individual can change their impact; their culture.

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    1. Thank You!

      Honestly, I’ve been applying across all industries, in the fields related to what I was working. That being said, I was working in the same industry for a decade, so I feel like that might be being counted against me as people think I can’t work any other industry now. It sucks.

      Your comment definitely brightened my night last night, though. I appreciate it. I hope you’re healing/recovering well. ❤

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  2. Are we twins, V? I’ve been having similar thoughts this evening.😏

    Honestly I think you’re doing a great job – please don’t beat yourself up over it. We can never accomplish everything we set out to do because there will always be more for us to do. For every dream you chase, there will be dreams you didn’t chase. For every choice you make now, there will be possibilities and opportunities you will miss as a result. In a world where infinite possibilities exist at any given time, how do we know that we are making the right choices? We don’t know. You’re doing your best in this moment in time. Perhaps it’s not what you want your best to look like but it’s normal to feel uncertain in life. Feeling uncomfortable simply means that you’re stepping outside of your comfort zone and this is where the magic happens. 🌺

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    1. We might just be long lost twins. I’ve always wanted a sister, so I’d welcome the prospect.

      Thank you for your pep talk. It makes me feel better when I read things like this and I know I need to kick my butt back into gear.

      Thank You ❤

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      1. Sisters, brothers, cats, dogs… Im open to all of them 😊 it sucks being an only child. Even pets are like siblings to us (so sad yet so true).

        I’m glad that my “words of wisdom” helped you. Honestly, when I’m feeling low, I listen to podcasts and take long walks outside. There’s something magical about tuning out the world and reconnecting with nature. I learn tidbits of wisdom from podcasts. 😊🌺


  3. Be yourself? I mean, do a research on the company first, then try to evaluate the company’s mission and vision? If they are align with your values, then go apply to that company, if you fall short, make yourself at ease by reading bad reviews on glassdoor. Maybe it wasn’t the job for you and trust me, there’s nothing wrong with you, the problem lies with the hiring managers, interviewers and the people your against with (which is none, except for yourself.)

    Why don’t you try applying on online jobs or whatever? Maybe social media marketing or anything that you want? (emphasizing, YOU WANT.)

    Lol. I know you can do this and don’t ever lose hope. Keep shining 💫


    1. Thank you for your note. I have been applying for jobs online. Most jobs in my industry are postings you need to apply online for. The jobs I’ve been applying for in person are those that are part time/retail type jobs I was hoping might tide me over until I found the right career style job again.

      I will take your suggestions to heart. Thank you for reading, and for responding. I appreciate the motivation you provided in leaving your a comment for me last night. Thank you ❤


  4. There are no failures! The most successful people fell short a million times. They just keep getting back up. I wish you renewed strength to get back up. One foot in front of the other. You are worth it. And never regret you your reaction to difficult times. It is normal. You will find strength and new vision again. Trust yourself. Believe in yourself. Wishing you great success.

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    1. You’re such a kind and good soul. Thank you for this. Your comment alone made me tear up last night as it reminded me that I really need to pick myself up and keep going. Thank you ❤


  5. The right job will come your way, and I don’t want to sound trite, but perseverance will pay off. As sleepy said, sometimes the problem is within the company you’re applying to. But it’s often worth it to reevaluate your strategy, have someone go over your application package, and help practice answering interview questions. Job hunting sucks … I wish you all the best.

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  6. I’ve been unemployed since the end of August. It’s caused me to have a lot of anxiety for different reasons and made me lose my motivation among other things. It sucks but it’s not as bad as it was. We’ll get there. 🖤

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    1. Oh, sister, I feel you. I really do. I’m so sorry for what you’re going through/what you’ve been through. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. I know firsthand how much it sucks! Sending positive vibes to the universe for you to help you find a new job, too. ❤

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  7. I had a night like this a couple weeks ago, too many thoughts in your head you can’t figure out which ones you actually want to hear.

    I hope you feel better tomorrow, it’s ok to cry though, but just remember that your strong after and you can show the world what your made of .

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    1. You’re a wise soul. I did cry. I cried it out and now I’m back on the ‘I’m going to kick some ass and take some names’ train. Hopefully it all works out soon, but if it doesn’t, I’m going to remember this message for motivation.


  8. Thats awful to hear mate. I know where you’re coming from. Unemployment is one of the things that can really cut a person down but dont stop trying. You will get there and you’ll cherish it so much more when you arrive because if the work it took you to get there. Maybe get your cv lookee at by a professional? Might help. If I domt get any interviews I modify my cv until I do


    1. Unfortunately, I’ve been getting the interviews. I seem to get to the final stage of the process and then get cut. It sucks! I hear you though, I’m going to get a few more people to look over my CV. It definitely cannot hurt! Thank you ❤


  9. There is nothing a good night sleep can’t cure. I have faith in you. And I have faith in God. Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Never ever lose your enthusiasm for life.
    Struggles make us strong.
    Get up. Dress up. Show up.
    Effort is Progress…much love and a big hug 🤗
    Soon I will write on How to create an abundant life …that will be my gift to you
    On the practical side : my son has a start up and he has started to hire sales and marketing guys in India. The moment he starts to expand in other countries I will ask him to talk to you first.


  10. I feel this way too, only difference is that I’m unemployed due to my mental illness but as days go by I feel like I have nothing to offer in this world. I wonder if I will be able to get better and live independently


    1. I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. I really can’t imagine what that feels like. I hope that you know you have things to offer this world, and I hope you know they’re of great value. Believe you can, and you will eventually. It may take time but you can ❤

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  11. Hi. I am very sorry to hear you are going through this – but please allow me to say how relatable your post was and how much it means to see someone echoing my thoughts. I am going through exactly the same thing, somehow falling short and I don’t understand it either. The competition terrifies me, I don’t think I’m worth enough to be able to stand out, and hitting “send” on an application just results in an uncontrollable fear-induced spiral. Thank you for sharing your words.


  12. I think you must value yourself first. Once that happens people will see your value. Sometimes God has us in certain situations that allow us to be in the valley of dry bones. Just long enough to encourage us to do something different.


  13. As a member of toastmasters since 2006 i recommend the organization highly. It benefits communicating smills, confidence, personal growth, and its in 142 countries, established nearly a hundred years ago. You can visit a meeting for free and clubs are everywhere. Worth a visit. All the best.

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  14. May I say your writing is winning ‘engagement’, and that is a talent I don’t seem to have!

    So, perhaps keep writing – you could put your ability to express emotion into a novel or short story.

    I suspect it would be a winner.


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