Words are hard.

I’ve been staring at this screen for the past thirty minutes. I’ve written, deleted, rewritten and re-deleted all of my thoughts this evening. Why? The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting change.

My thoughts don’t even seem worthy of putting into words tonight. I’m not anxious, I’m just in a mood. Things are annoying me. I can’t seem to wrap my head around what I want. I have so many ideas and none of them ever seem to come to fruition.

Lately I’ve been thinking it might be nice to just go into business for myself. You know… start a consulting firm and charge people oodles of money for my services. Wow, I can’t believe I said that out loud (so to speak). The entire concept sounds so stupid, yet so exhilarating. I know my worth. I possess such a unique skill set that I know I could bring immense value to any company that I worked for, yet for one reason or another they just don’t seem to hire me. Perhaps I should flip the coin, take control of the situation and charge the heck out of them for my services. I’m not sure that I’ll tell anyone this. At least not now. More than anything it’s a pipe dream at the moment. Perhaps one day.

Until then, I think I’ll just stay hopeful. Hopeful for success, hopeful for a future, hopeful for a day when cell phones aren’t twice as much as laptops, hopeful for happiness.

Hey Knight, if you’re reading this, I think that we should go to Vegas for my birthday. I’m saying this now so that you can take days off.

12 thoughts on “Words are hard.

  1. I went into business 9 years ago, lost a million dollars and still owing debts right now. However that experience taught me a lesson. If you asked me would I go back to do it again? I will but this time I will prepare myself. Everything happens for a reason. Thats what makes life so interesting and so damn daunting and difficult. Always a pleasure to read your blogs.

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    1. Sounds like you could provide some very invaluable (and valuable) advice on the situation. If I ever do decide to go ahead with it, I know I’ll be seeking some advice from you!

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    1. Thanks for your advice Elisha. Trust me, if I ever do go ahead with it, it’ll be well thought through prior to the decision being made. I’m not one to do things haphazardly! I appreciate your reading, and your response. ❤

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  2. Do go on your own Vee. I have been telling you very often to think What are you doing and Why.
    Go on your own. But focus on Serving; Giving your best, Creating Value. Don’t focus on money and billing. That happens on its own.
    The secret of success is : shift your focus from What is in it for me? to What can I do? How can I help?
    All the best for your birthday in Las Vegas 💃🏻🍷 when is it ?

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  3. ♡ Well the “words” are here now SupaSoulSis V; the best bit of writing advice I ever heard is “Redraft, Redraft, Redraft, ad nauseum”…in basic terms it means that if a deadline is involved deliver the current draft and the editor will take care of the rest; otherwise your time is your own and you will reach a point of satisfaction with your “words”

    …♡♡♡…

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  4. If you have a skill then consult with it! But it’s just as hard to find clients for work as it is a FT job nowadays! It just takes time to build your brand. But never lose hope. Never let people make you feel not good enough either. Being turned down for work makes anybody feel frustrated and also a little upset. But in reality don’t get jaded. Keep trying and keep smiling and keep positive and keep skilled and you will get along that way. I meet very talented people who are hard to employ as they are just miserable!!! The art of succeeding is being able to get up time after time after time of failing. With the same smile the same ambition! As Mr Honda said success is 99% failure! Smile! Get qualified! And don’t let the B@$tards grind you down!! Good luck

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  5. I know exactly what you mean. Being in a wheelchair, nobody ever wants to hire me. I’m sure at some point, maybe, possibly, someone might take a chance on me but who knows? I’ve been thinking a lot lately about maybe working for myself too. Doing some freelance writing or something like that. It seems like that’s the only option nowadays. I hope everything works out for you. Who knows, maybe we can both make money doing this blogging thing someday.

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