I have a job interview today.

To clarify, when I speak of my anxiety, it’s because the coping mechanisms that I usually use to work through my anxiety aren’t working.

I have a job interview today. It was 95% of the reason why I was anxious last night and is 100% of the reason why I am anxious today.

On the one hand, I’m thinking ‘hey, potential job prospect, this is great!’ And ‘I really hope this isn’t like the scam I walked into, and wasted my time at, in May’.

On the other hand, I’m thinking ‘hey, this is nowhere near Calgary and I have goals and plans for my life. If I accepted a job like this, would it stray me from my goals?’

And then there’s a nagging insecurity in my brain saying ‘Don’t just think you’re going to get this job, no one else wants to hire you so why would they?’

Realistically, the only thing that I can do is go into this job interview with an open mind. If I hope for the best then I can figure the rest out after. It’s just dealing with these nagging feelings of anxiety inside that I struggle with. I haven’t quiet yet figured out how to tackle all of my triggers, so there are times when I let my fears see light.

Speaking of good news (smooth transitions only, right), my mom went to the cancer clinic today for her follow up appointment. She’s required to do follow ups ‘x’ amount of days after finishing treatment and then every six months for two years and then once a year for five years following that (just to make sure that the cancer doesn’t return). Anyways, in her follow up appointment today they told her that she’s healing remarkably well, there’s no sign of recurring cells and they’re very impressed with her health at this point.

So that’s great!

It’s a rainy, gloomy day here. I’m trying to stay positive though.

There’s a lot to be thankful for. Mainly my mom’s health. I know not everyone gets so lucky when it comes to cancer, and our family is eternally grateful.

29 thoughts on “I have a job interview today.

  1. That is great news about your mom!
    Best of luck on your interview today…just be yourself and trust the universe to lead you where you are meant to be. I truly believe these things have a way of working themselves out.

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      1. You are welcome. And I don’t mean to downplay your anxiety in any way, shape or form. I understand those feelings. I just know from experience, to reach something great, sometimes we have to wade through a ton of hurt and bullshit. Keep us updated!

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  2. Honestly, I feel you…I’m looking for a job again myself and I’m just filled with constant doubt. And any position I’m excited for I prepare myself for getting the job, plan my schedule and everything, and then it falls through. The news with your mom’s health is a huge positive! If she can heal through this process so can you! ❤️

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  3. Good luck with your job interview! I struggle with my anxiety too when it comes to things like this, I’ve found the more I put myself in similar situations the more I get used to it, and the better I can cope with it. I understand that it is easier said then done though!

    Amazing news about your mum!

    Sending all my love and best wishes! 💕

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  4. Delighted to hear about your mum, V. That’s definitely good news and let’s hope the good news keeps coming with a new job in the near future for you, my friend. Go in there and be your amazing self and what will be, will be. Proud of how you keep going despite the anxiety. Sorry for being so quiet of late. ❤️

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    1. We’ve talked about this – STOP SAYING SORRY! It’s like you’re Canadian or something. hahahaha! I just like it when you pop up. But I know you’re a busy man. Hope you’re well ❤

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      1. I should never be too busy to be there for you though. That’s on me.

        How did the interview go and why were you up so late my friend?

        Been an anxiety-riddled week for me, more than the recent average but hoping that dissipates over the weekend.

        Sending all the love, as always.

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      2. Uh oh, really? I hope you feel you can talk to me about anything, V.

        I’m heading to a place called La Pineda which is near Salou, in Spain. I went there with my son, mum and dad last year and had a great time. Going this time to take my mum’s place though as she has an operation due next Thursday and won’t be able to fly as a result.

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      3. It wasn’t that bad. I thought I was compelling and showed them I was competent enough. I just felt as though I was being judged on my appearance, and I don’t think I met their standards, so I don’t know that I’ll be hearing from them again.

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      4. I sincerely hope they weren’t judging you on your appearance! If you are competent and compelling, that’s all that matters! What do you think they wanted that you didn’t have? This makes me sad and mad. The best person for the job is the best person for the job, regardless.

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      5. Unfortunately, it’s something that I run into far too often, as I think a lot of females run into. I have nothing against the male gender, I just feel as though men are selected for their qualifications and women must first meet their appearance requirements before their qualifications will be considered.

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      6. That really pisses me off, V. We live in an age where that shouldn’t be the case. I would employ you in a heartbeat. You are smart, articulate, thoughtful, interesting and I fully believe you’d be a committed and dedicated worker.

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