A (whiny) day in the life of an unemployed millennial.

It’s been a few weeks now since my mom was officially declared to be in remission. Here, here! I’m thankful for the incredible doctors, nurses, caretakers and specialists who looked after her for the past eight months. It’s all because of them that she’s now healthy.

Since she’s been in remission, I’ve been struggling to find my way. Truthfully, I don’t know how I fit into this family. When I was looking after my mom I had a purpose for being here. Now I just feel like a little bit of a dead-weight permanently attached to their ankles.

Every day is different, but most days involve the same themes to them.

8:30 am – Wake up, take dog outside, feed dog.

9:00 am – Eat breakfast, watch the Maury show. (I’m not sure if anyone else loves this show as much as I do but watching Maury makes me feel a lot better about my problems)

10:00 am – Crawl back into bed because… really, I don’t have anything to be awake for.

11:00 am – Wake up for a second time.

11:30 am – Go to meet my brother and sister-in-law for lunch. Tell my brother and sister-in-law how excited i am to be starting my new job next week, that I really needed this and that’s important to me to be making a pay-cheque again. Tell them all about the issues I’ve been having in the past six months trying to find work and how frustrating the process is and feel as though they genuinely understand and don’t just presume I’m lazy and unmotivated. It’s a nice change.

1:30 pm – Return home. Take the dog for a quick walk to get her out and give her some exercise.

2:00 pm – ‘To-be boss’ phones and leaves irky voicemail while I am in the shower asking me to call her back immediately.

2:20 pm – Call back my ‘to-be boss’ to be informed that the job I am supposed to start in three days I am no longer hired for. Is it technically considered as being fired if I never made it to my first day? Apparently corporate restructuring came down just three days before my start date, so my job offer has been rescinded. But, she said ‘You’re a smart kid, I know you’ll land on your feet’, so everything’s going to be okay. Right?

2:22 pm – Immediately start crying. Cannot control the crying. Text my mom and Knight to tell them what happened. Proceed to spend several hours feeling sorry for myself and mad at the world whilst trying to tell myself that this wasn’t meant to be, I’m meant for bigger things and that I’ve ‘dodged a bullet’.

6:30 pm – Ordered takeout

6:35 pm – Back to the drawing board. I opened my computer back up, searched jobs in this city and jobs in Calgary (where I’d like to be) and began editing and submitting my resume to each of these businesses.

I would just like to say, job hunting is an aggravating process. One of the applications I filled out asked “Can you speak Canada?” That doesn’t even make sense. I can definitely speak better English than that, so can I have the job of creating your job applications from now on?

8:30 pm – Take dog for a long walk. There’s a large hill with 100 stairs near my house. I like to take the dog there and I do the stairs and she runs the hill beside me a few times over to tire her out. Exercise is good for the soul, especially when you’re in a bad mood. I wholeheartedly believe that.

10:00 pm – Back to the drawing board, continuation from earlier. I’m browsing job postings. This night I am also submitting my resume to McDonald’s and Burger King. I may not like the outfits, but I think it’s time I start one of these jobs, at the least, to ensure I make some money this year.

I like to put Friends, The Big Bang Theory or Two Broke Girls on the tv in the background. The great thing about all three of these shows is that they’re pretty much on at all hours of the day if you look.

Job hunting isn’t the funnest process. At least, with these shows I can have a couple of laughs during the hunt.

1:00 am – Play Clash Royale until I’m ready to fall asleep.

I’m not really sure where I’m going next. I’m not really sure what I’m going to do. At some point I’m going to have to tell my friends and family that I was ‘unhired’ and had the rug pulled from beneath my feet. I presume that’ll come on Monday when they all ask me how work is going and I don’t have a response fo rthem.

Right now, I guess I just have to keep going until I find the path that’s right for me. I hate having so many unanswered questions. I hate having so much up in the air. For someone who moved out of the house when she was 16, it’s a really hard pill to swallow to be unemployed in my parents basement at 30.

I can truly say that I never saw this happening for my life. I can truly say that it’s a struggle, most days, to keep going. But I guess the important thing at this point is to keep going and stop feeling sorry for myself. I need to get out of this rut. Life isn’t always easy and I need to be better at dealing with that.

I know I’ll land on my feet eventually. I just wish I knew when that was. Because, quite frankly, not knowing is what makes this so hard.

32 thoughts on “A (whiny) day in the life of an unemployed millennial.

    1. Yeah, it sucks. She really didn’t give a damn about me at all. Hopefully I’ll find a boss out there, somewhere in this world, who’ll treat me with the respect I deserve. Or at the very least, treat me like I’m a human being.

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  1. Sorry to hear that you lost the job. That sucks! I recently went through a period of unemployment myself and it was super hard. All I can stay is stick with it and try to meet people face to face if you can, it helps a lot. Best of luck!

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  2. Do you speak Canada?! Lol! That person prob watches south park.
    So after one relapse, when I had a sponsor, she told me I could allow myself 24 hours to feel sorry for myself, then I had to get back to it. I’ve used that option a few times since then. Looks like with you starting up the job hunt right away, you’re already heading in the right direction.
    I had to spend a month living with my parents after marriage 2 unexpectedly blew up in my face when I was 30. Totally understand how you feel, but my parents told me that they’re my parents for life, not just until I’m of legal age to start caring for myself, so they’re always there for me.
    Sending lots of good vibes your way in hopes that you find the answer you need. 💖💖💖 Don’t question the process until afterwards. You’ll drive yourself crazy doing that. 🥰🥰🥰

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    1. Is that a Southpark reference? I’ve never seen it. I just thought it sounded like someone was wanting to ask if I spoke English but they probably had English as a second language and chose the wrong words.

      I’m definitely driving myself crazy right now so I feel like you know exactly how I am feeling. Thank you for your sweet note. What your parents said, it sounds like they’re very sweet souls.

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  3. I went thru unemployment on and off for the past 6 years so hang in there. Next month is the first “good” job I have had aka not Wal-mart. The past 2 years I ran an in home preschool, 1 of my 2 students was pulled w/no warning to be sat by her grandma. Anyhow, I was looking for online jobs to supplement my income, there was a great blog that helps with no scams, and I found the indeed app quite useful. I also found a hard time finding my identity with no grown children, my at home daycare was isolating, and so much of our identity and value is wrapped up in work as a social norm/culturally. I found that the biggest challenge to overcome. Also during periods of unemployment I have volunteered. It’s extremely tough though. hang in there. Remember, lots of jobs are cut because of funding at least in the U.S., I’ve had that occur as well. It’s not the same as being fired.

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    1. @Read.Count.Craft I also like to volunteer during times of unemployment. It gives me a sense of purpose during times of uncertainty. With volunteering, there’s usually perks included with the work like free stuff which is a bonus. The indeed site is helpful I find, and I have used it a number of times when looking for jobs.

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      1. Have you noticed that on indeed they ask “Are you in _______ [Location]?”

        I’ve come to realize that if I check “No” to “Are you in Calgary?” they won’t even look at my resume. If I check yes and still leave my BC address on there, they’ll still consider me and call me. It’s crazy how the computers just count you out of the running like that!

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      2. That’s crazy, V! I didn’t know that Indeed did that. I’ve always filtered my job searches to places local to where I live. Algorithms are so flawed and it’s surprising that companies rely on them so much!

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    2. I do graphic design work for three different charities for their annual fundraising events each year. I definitely agree, volunteering the services you do have is very rewarding, and it does keep me busy. You feel good because you know it’s one less thing the charity has to buy/purchase/pay for.

      Thanks for your note. I’m glad to hear someone has come out the other side. I need to use that as motivation.

      Thank You

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  4. “Can you speak Canada?” LOL I cracked up. 😂

    I’m really happy that your mom is doing well 🙏🏻💕 It truly feels rewarding when you’re able to not only help yourself, but others too. I’m impressed that you remembered what you did each hour of that day. It’s often one big blur after receiving unfortunate news which can totally put a damper on an otherwise good day.

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    1. I journal a lot throughout the day. Putting pen to paper is something that helps with my anxiety. I use them to look back on and say ‘Okay, I was productive then’ or ‘okay, I was a lazy butt then so I can’t be now’. It’s kind of like… motivation, I guess.

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  5. This was an awesome post. First, congrats on your mom going into remission, that’s amazing. Second, thank you for sharing your story on your journey of finding your right path. I’m going through a similar situation. For the past few years I’ve felt completely lost. I would search for my purpose in other people liking me. I recently had an epiphany that made me realize it’s time to just worry about and love myself. I can’t chase people or find my worth in who stays and who leaves. I just need to be alone and be okay with that. It’s not easy. Every day I still have anxiety and think too much. It’s a tough journey but I’ll get through it. Anywho, I really relate to your stories and it helps me not feel so alone on this journey so, thank you.

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    1. As much as I wouldn’t wish this feeling on anyone, I do think that it makes me feel better to know I’m not alone in these thoughts. Thank you for your kind and compassionate note and for reminding me to stop worrying about what others think of me and just start worrying about and loving myself.

      Sending love and light and positive vibes to the universe for you. You deserve to find your way and I hope that you do ❤

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  6. While I’m definitely sorry you had the rug pulled out from under you with that job, I have to admit something I’ve been thinking anytime I’ve read your posts about the job hunts…you are so brave. I really admire it, because for me I feel so intimidated by the job hunt and all the things involved that often times as soon as I pull up the search I have a panic attack and close it. I left my job a little over a year ago due to my mental health and have been terrified to jump back into the workforce. Seeing you going for positions worthy of you, not giving up despite some unfair scenarios, being willing to completely relocate, have the hard convo’s, etc. is motivating to me. I really hope something does finally pan out for you and you find that thing that makes you FEEL like you have a purpose, because I know it’s totally different someone telling you you have a purpose and you feeling it.

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    1. This was amazing for me to read. Thank you ❤

      I sincerely hope you find some strength yourself to help you better your mental health and find your own purpose. I believe in you!

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  7. Hey V, I know you’ve been through some tribulations lately. Back in 2016 I was unemployed for 5 months despite being an expert on job hunting plus an HR person, and I felt like I was NEVER going to get a friggin job. Omg, that sucked. Even after I got a job finally, it took an additional 3 years to get the kind of job I want (which I have now). My former boss, 65 yrs old and the person responsible for my whole HR career told me, “Chin up, careers don’t go in a straight line” and she turned out to be absolutely right a few years later. You’re 30, I was 35 when all this happened. For real I thought it was the end of my life as I new it. Hindsight 2020 – It may be a good while before you land that perfect gig. Like…. it may not be until 40. I’m 39 and I just got there, and only kind of. You seem talented, you’ll get there. Shit doesn’t happen at 30 or even in your early 30’s, it takes a minute longer. Based on your struggles lately I have been contemplating doing a whole entire post about this subject. Been wanting to write about HR anyway and you might have inspired me to do my first HR post. Depends on how lazy or motivated I am in the coming weeks. We’ll see. If I do that big “comfort to the unemployed” post I’ll send you a head’s up since it would be inspired by you. Peace – ZeroSpace

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    1. Thank you for this. Thank you so much. It’s difficult for me to put into words how much I appreciated reading this and how much better it’s made me feel tonight.

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      1. You bet, lady. I might make it a point this weekend. Because I told you so… now i HAVE to do it. For real, I need to focus and start doing some HR writing. Hey, have a good weekend.

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  8. You could definitely see your enthusiasm in the work you write.
    The world hopes for more passionate writers such as you who aren’t afraid to mention how they believe.
    Always follow your heart.

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