Letters to anyone,

I’m not sure what it is about 1:00 am that really draws me in but I seem to find myself in the same place, every night.

I was fifteen years old when I first fell in love. The feeling, unlike anything I’d ever known before in my life, took over me like a fire engulfing a home in a mere matter of seconds. Before I knew it, I was flat on the pavement wishing for the ability to be anywhere but where I was.

It’s funny how life does that to us… knocking us on our ass when we least expect it, testing us, seeing what we’re capable of and how long we can withstand the pain of heartbreak and heartache.

You know, Michelangelo believed the best way to judge the essential elements of a sculpture was to throw it down a hill and the unimportant pieces would break off. Sometimes, I think, life is like that. It tosses us down a hill. But when we reach the bottom and only the important things are left, that’s when our vision clears.

Would I go back in time and change anything? Certainly not. Could I have been smarter, done better or avoided the heartbreak? Certainly, absolutely, and not at all. When I made it through that, my vision cleared. The beauty of heartbreak is that it teaches us, not only about ourselves and who we are. but heartbreak teaches us what we want for our lives and what we don’t want. And 15 year old me, well she had a lot to learn.

I’ve heard people say that if you wait long enough, if you hold out hope and always keep trying, good things will come. And I think, slowly but surely they do. I don’t think it’s a massive change, as though you get to wake up one morning and be a completely different person. I think it’s much more subtle than that. We make small improvements every day and suddenly that heartbreak that encapsulated our entire existence seems like a distant memory.

The heartbreak I am suffering these days, it’s a different kind of heartbreak. I do think the same principles apply, though. 30 year old me, she still has a lot to learn. And this heartbreak, it may not be over a boy, but if you asked me honestly I would tell you it hurts just the same.

Well, I had this all thought out in my head and now that I’m here, I’m having a hard time drawing this to a close. I want to say something profound, something hopeful, something thoughtful, but I can’t. Small changes, I guess. One day at a time. If you’re there, if you’re struggling, if you’ve been tossed down the hill, just remember that those unimportant pieces are falling off (being left behind) for a reason.

Sincerely, Vee.

37 thoughts on “Letters to anyone,

    1. Perhaps it was the time of day I was writing, my thoughts weren’t exactly making sense to me as I put them on the page. That being said, the reassurance definitely helps, so thank you ❤

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  1. Thanks,again a post at the right time in the right place. I lost my wife almost a year ago & the hurt & emptiness never changes. The only difference is that because of my living situation, I have to hide my tears & pain or I get the “Are you ok?” routine. Thanks again for a wonderful piece.

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    1. Thank you for being strong enough to share your story. I can’t imagine the struggle it brings to be a widow, but you seem like a very strong, loving and compassionate man. Sending love and light your direction ❤

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      1. It’s nice to be single & be spared the pain and suffering. Thank you again you always have the right blog at the right moment I do so enjoy your blogs & words of wisdom, They make my days a little brighter. I offer you blessings that things will quickly change for you & I’m glad your money complications & crisis changed for the better.

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      1. Thank you so much V. Was writing regularly but got distracted. Days often come when I wonder why am I doing all this? Blogging, Book etc? World shall merrily go on with or without me 😇
        I pray that God gives you wisdom to make right choices V. And I hope Mr. Wilson is doing fine.
        Yes, am excited about my trip – exact one month from today 😊
        The trip, book and some organisational Responsibilities have all come together at the same time! 24 hours aren’t enough 😂
        But He always take care of me 😊🙏

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  2. I agree with Elisha. You’ve been given a gift to write with passion. You may not see it yet, but you did a beautiful job of bringing your “letter” to a close. There’s important meaning within this beautiful piece. My guess is that everyone who reads it will get you intention

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  3. Everything what have happened with us made us the people we are today. And if you like a person you turned to be, you do not want to change anything in the past – you do not know what it would break in the present (see the “Butterfly effect”).

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  4. Hey, you definitely said something thoughtful and profound, what are you talking about?! ❤ The Michelangelo scene played out so well in my head, that's a great way to explain what life does to us sometimes. Thank you for always sharing your thoughts, no matter how hard it is. They come out so beautiful and deep, they always inspire us, V! I hope your hurting ends soon, it has too.

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    1. It’s a huge compliment to think that my words can inspire someone else. I’m not sure why that is, but I am grateful for it. So thank you for sharing with me and letting me know. It does bring me a lot of hope, to think that my words matter. That’s a really important gift you’ve given me. Thank you ❤

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  5. I agree completely. We can only learn from our mistakes. Only after making that mistake do we know that it was a mistake. We never stop learning. Some lessons need to be relearnt. It’s an endless cycle.

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  6. Wow! I love that whole Michelangelo part. It really hit home for me because I am currently in the process of getting over a heartbreak and it’s true, I feel like I’m so much stronger because of it. This allowed me to let go of so many negatives aspects of myself. Or aspects that served no purpose in my life. Thank you for posting this. It’s exciting being able to read about your journey. Keep going.

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    1. Well, I don’t know how exciting my journey truly is, but it means a lot to me that you keep coming back and leaving me motivational notes on my blog. It’s small things that really make my day’s brighter and each day that I see a comment from you, I have a reason to smile. Your kindness radiates, my dear.

      I’m sorry for the heartbreak you’re trying to work through. I hope that you’re now realizing how strong you are and how capable you are of everything. Sending love and support your way ❤

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  7. Continue to live 1 day at a time. Things always get better and then you will face another trial. Life is about picking yourself up and moving on in a positive manner, developing loving thoughts. Didn’t say it was easy, but you can do it.

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