I’m just really upset with myself today. There are a lot of reasons why, none of which are worthy of getting into. Some days are better than others and sadly, today is not one of those days.
I’m feeling really alone, extremely isolated and I can’t shake this state of being. I’m in a funk.
My go-to things to do when I get like this are to shop and to eat junk food. Neither are things I should be doing right now so I’m trying to keep myself from doing that, too, and it’s definitely not helping.
I hear you. When I feel that way I tend to overeat. Sometimes going on a walk helps me. Other times it feels like nothing helps 😦
Sometimes it just helps to remember that the intensity passes.
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Thank you ❤
Hoping this passes sooner rather than later.
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Just remember what great blog posts you share and the reaction you receive. Sometimes the difficult times are tough but they make you appreciate the good moments even more when they kick back in. Best wishes for a speedy bounce back!
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Thank you ❤
Your comment definitely brought a smile to my face when I read it. I tend to underestimate the value this blog brings to my life and I really should stop doing that.
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It brings a lot of value to your readers too – and that’s a special gift. It’s so easy to take your own positive skills and abilities for granted but others do really see them and appreciate them.
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Sorry you are having rough day V 😔
Maybe get outside, take your doggies for a walk and see if that helps.
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Thanks G ❤
Maybe some junk food is in order. lol
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This too shall pass. Exercise helps.
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Thanks for the note ❤ I hope it passes soon.
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Some days are just sucky. When I feel that way, music helps. I’m talkin’ loud, fast rock music. You may want to play with it to see what style gets you goin’. All the best.
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Oh, I do love me some Rolling Stones. Perhaps I should put that on this afternoon. Thanks for the suggestion ❤
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Vee, to me writing helps. Maybe not for the blog but journaling. It just helps to declutter somehow and creates a space for something else or adds to the same. If there is any art form that can help, try your hand on it. I wish you healing. Take care 😊
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Thank you ❤
I've been writing a lot today. None of it worthy of sharing, all of it mostly just me complaining. It definitely has helped though, I know what you mean.
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It’ll get better 😊
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Try keeping your mind busy and try spending some face time….this is not going to last long …keep checking and changing ❤️
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Thank You ❤
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V, if you need to chat, drop me a line. 🙂
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That’s a really sweet offer. Thank you ❤
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What other things do you like to do? We have junk food, shopping and blogging. Use your dominate voice to create your masterpiece. Success is waiting for you.
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I like going to the Thrift Store and finding hidden gems for pennies on the dollar. I’m dog sitting right now, though, and 20 miles out of town without a vehicle, so I’m stuck here for at least the next 24-48 hours.
Perhaps i should put something up today. Something noteworthy and a little less whiney. Thank you for the motivation ❤
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Oh definitely. I like my bargains and coupons love me the Dollar tree and 99cent stores. Love dogs. Allergies to cats. Sure take your time. I actually don’t drive. I’m afraid to. So I’m lucky public transport is available.
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Keep fighting V
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Thank You ❤ I'm trying. It's been a rough day, that's for sure.
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I hope that you can pull out of this funk! They are never fun. Wish I had a good suggestion on how to get out of it.
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Thanks Jeremy ❤
I'm just hoping it passes soon. I thought this year was going to be so different and all I am doing today is dwelling on things I should be leaving in the past.
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From what I’ve read of your posts so far, you seem like a very strong person. So I think it’s ok to have those rough days, to toughen back up again and learn what kind of self care works and what doesn’t work. You got this ❤️
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Leann, you’re such a sweet soul ❤ Thank you. You definitely see more strength in me than I do. Because I feel anything but strong on a day like today. I will take your words to heart, though. I will see what kind of self-care I can find to see if anything helps.
Thank you.
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Hang in there, V.
Is there anything you can do that makes you feel powerful? I find that my own depression is closely tied to feeling powerless. Some things that help me feel powerful again are: listening to lady rap/hip-hop music, writing a list of every cool thing I’ve ever done, and working out.
I hope you feel better soon!
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I never associated depression with feeling powerless before. OMG This is SO TRUE! Whenever I feel super depressed it’s almost always a mix of powerlessness and loss of control.
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Do you have any suggestions of lady rap/hip hop? I tend to stay away from those genres because a lot of the lyrics are so derogatory towards women.
That’s a really good idea of writing a list of all the cool things I’ve ever done. How to flood your brain with happy memories. I’m definitely going to try that one. Thank you<3
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I had to look up my morning playlist. Here’s what I’ve got: Bossy by Kelis, Started by Iggy Azalea, 7 Rings by Ariana Grande, and Money Power and Respect by DMX with Lil’ Kim. Those are all pretty well-known. If you want something more mellow with the same strong-girl message check out Kali Uchis or something more upbeat electronic checkout Sofi Tukker.
That’s all I can think of for now.
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Hang in there, I get it. Some seasons are like that… it can get better! Reach out to a friend or two. ❤
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I know you’re right in that it is smart to reach out to a friend in a time like this, thing is, I don’t feel like talking to anyone. Does that make sense? I get in these moods and I just want to forget the world.
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I do get it 😞… Sometimes it’s worth reaching out anyway. At least for me it is. Even if I don’t like it at first.
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I’m sorry you are feeling alone and isolated, V. I am thinking about you and you are in my thoughts, so you’re with me in spirit. Some days are suckier than others but we’ll get through it. 🥀🌹🌹
Junk food and shopping sprees are a form of overcompensating for feeling a lack of something in our lives. You are not alone. For me, I numb the pain with cake, candy, and Dollarama ♥️
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Ah, good ole Dollarama. There’s some real gems in there. I wish I could go there right now.
Thanks Hil ❤
I'm just holding out for Thursday when I get to leave again. Hoping the next few days aren't too tough.
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Dollarama is the best dollar store hands down. Thursday will be here before you know it. In the meantime, enjoy your time off, V! 😎✨
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I know what those kind of days feel like, I’ve been having them more often lately.
I’m not really an expert on what to do, but for myself at least I find it helps if I just do something, literally anything. I’ll go for a walk, wash the dishes, vacuum, etc. Just as long as I’m up and moving.
It might not fix the problem, but it makes for good distraction.
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I’m house sitting right now – and I kind of already took your advice today. I’ve been cleaning this house all day. It’s not even my house, and they’re not even paying me to do it. I just needed to keep my hands moving, so I started cleaning.
It worked, for a few hours. I do agree with you there!
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I think we all go through those days of road blocks. It’s unfortunate, but all we can do is keep moving on, at least that’s what I’m telling myself now.
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Keep on trucking. I know what you mean. Thank you ❤
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I think we all have those days. I try to find something to occupy my mind or if possible get out of the house and do something fun. Sometimes writing in my journal will help me to just vent it all out on paper. Just. Know that you are not alone and we do care.
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Thank you Sherry ❤ All are very good suggestions. For the most part I've just been venting today. It does make me feel a little better to know I'm not alone in this.
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Yes it really helps to vent sometimes. I’ve also found that it helps at times to just have a good cry. It is ok to give ourselves permission to feel whatever it is that we feel. I just try not to dwell there for long. I vent, cry and then quickly begin finding my way back to a positive place.
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You’re absolutely right
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It must be something in the air…I ate so much shit today. So much for the weight I lost. I’m stressed bc I start a new job on Tuesday, but don’t have the money for they uniform required. I’ve asked 3 people and none are able to help. The stipulations for the job are if you’re not in uniform they’ll send you home and you’ll get a write up. This isn’t how I want to start a job! I’ve been so stressed over this shit. I’ve been sooooooo fucking sad. I can’t even begin to explain…. but this is my rant and I am doing my best NOT to sink deep into my true isolation stage. I do enjoy your posts, they’re real and actually define/express exactly what I’m feeling and/or thinking.
Thank you.
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I’m sorry that you’re so stressed. I can’t imagine what I would do in that situation. I hope that you get it all sorted out by Tuesday. Or hopefully, at the least, your employer can be understanding of and helpful with the situation. Perhaps they can pay for it and then take it off your pay cheque after? I don’t know, probably not. I’m just spitballing things I’d be thinking of if I was in that situation. I’m sorry.
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I’ve thought of all that and, no they don’t.
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Some days are definitely better than others…
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I feel this often. When I feel low and get sad, I start listening to music or just sleep.
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Again, I feel for you. I’ve had plenty of those days. It’s great that you have a list of go to activities which you’ve identified as helpful when you feel like this. I wonder if there are other things you could add to this list? Sometimes, for me, it’s just a matter of gritting my teeth, waiting for the storm to pass, and trying to hold onto faith that things will get better soon. And I just try to distract myself in the meantime with activities which hopefully aren’t too unhealthy.
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I have no advice. I don’t know how to keep myself cheered up. Things that help me a bit are a hot shower, a nap, &/or a walk. Lots of lying in dark rooms occurs despite those. Good luck!
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Oh honey,
You seem to truly be struggling right now. I know it’s an old saying that is well over played but it is so extremely true that you have to keep pushing forward because there IS a light at the end of the tunnel. Having struggled with severe depression and anxiety my entire life ( as early as 5 I can remember ) the one thing I can always count on is that nothing lasts forever. NOTHING including the sadness life brings. Keep putting one foot in front of the other, don’t stop and if you need time, do not make yourself feel bad about it. You are entitled to feel what ever you feel no matter what those feelings are, just don’t live in those feelings. Feel them and release them so something new can come in.
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V, just remember there are good days to come. Not sure when but they will.
For me feeling alone is during the long evenings and night time.
Will be thinking of you and if you don’t mind praying for you also.
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The evenings seem to get me most as well. We’ve definitely got that in common.
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Yeah V, the downfall of living single these days.
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I do the same thing:( I just went out and impulsively bought the most gorgeous dress I could find, then went to get myself a large shake, a pack of double-stuffed oreos, and some donut holes 😂 I might not be able to fit in the dress now but it felt good
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Anxiety sucks! I used to suffer from it. At one point in my life things got really bad. Not just me worrying but serious destruction of most of what I thought my life was about. Somewhere in the middle of all that, with a baby asleep on my chest in the middle of a Barnes & Noble, I read a book on meditation. For the first time in my life, my mind got calm, my thoughts quiet.
Holy cow, it was SUCH a relief.
It was absolutely not the thing that solved all my problems!! It was, though, a turning point. Because after that, I know that finding calm was possible. And I kept striving to find it in ways that were helpful and healthy rather than just numbing.
I say this just to say: it is possible. I know how hard it is to live in the middle of anxiety. Numbing it with shopping and junk food is an option. It probably serves a purpose, even, because it lets you function somewhat. But keep looking for better options, even if they are just tiny 2-millimeter changes.
They add up.
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