There are days…

There are days when I struggle to look at myself in the mirror.

There are days when I don’t believe that I’m worthy of anything I have in this life.

There are days when I just don’t feel capable of basic human function. Everything seems too difficult and too complicated for me to even comprehend.

There are days when I wonder what I did wrong to wind up this… scared, selfish and stupid.

There are days when I question everything.

Oh, there are days.

There are days when everything bothers me. People chewing. Rain falling. Wind gusting. It’s all annoying and there’s nothing I can do but just see it through.

There are days when it’s hard to zip my lips and to stay out of it.

There are days when I want to give up, run away, leave it all behind.

There are days when I am so out of touch with myself that I look back and I think ‘who the fuck was that person?’

Oh there are days.

The most important thing to remember through all of this? That without the bad days we cannot appreciate the good. That the good people in our lives, they’ll be there whether we’re in a good mood or a bad. Whether we’re easy to get along with or we couldn’t be trying harder to push them away.

We need to remember that these bad days remind us that we’re human. That struggle is real and that we shouldn’t diminish the value of it when it comes. Because struggle teaches us. It makes us stronger. It shows us what we’re truly capable.

There are days when it feels a though the world is crashing down around me. But those days, as with all things in life, they too shall pass…

38 thoughts on “There are days…

  1. Beautifully said. Keep your head up no matter what life throws at you. Persist for along as you exist. Life will eventually get tired of testing you. You will have a wonderful future. Believe it. Work for it and you can have or be anything in life

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    1. You’re quite good with the pep talks. Seriously, this is some A+ motivation here. And I know that sounds cheesy when I say this, but I really loved reading this. It felt like you were my best friend trying to set me straight.
      Thank you

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      1. Sometimes all you need are some kind words of encouragement. Kindness is something that must be given with no thought of return. The secret to living is giving. We all fight battles in life. There is always a light in a sea of darkness. You just have to keep fighting

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  2. Well-put, V. These thoughts have what I’ve been struggling for months with. Endless days of wanting to cry, tearing up, and crying anyway. Thoughts of dark places and hatred for the world. But there’s no choice but to keep going, keep trying until a silver lining arrives. Might not be what you expected, but it’s an opportunity, and it can lead you to a good place eventually. There is good in the world as much as the bad, and it’s important to keep that in mind when it gets tough. Have faith!

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    1. Oh, I am so there with you. Sometimes I just start crying and I can’t even explain as to why.
      I’m trying to remember there’s good out there and hoping that it comes soon. I’ll try to keep the faith. Thank you for your solidarity today ❤

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  3. I hope you feel better soon. I have to admit that 50% of my last blog post was based on things I recalled you saying on here over the last few weeks, and the other half was how I relate to those things you said. You were the shadow muse. You really struggle, but you face it head on and I admire that. Further, you share it here…. and it’s that combination of vulnerability / crazy mixed with desire to be helpful that readers like. I finally articulated your secret sauce. I cracked the code a little.

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    1. Thank You ❤ I don't know how admirable it is, but I appreciate the compliment. I'd say I'm definitely more crazy than vulnerable. haha Good to hear there's a secret sauce. lol

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  4. Edit; actually it was more like 10-20% the muse factor. I just realized it’s a lonnnnng ass post. Don’t ask me why I’m so concerned with accurate math suddenly though :).

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  5. It helps to remember that things could be worse and that tribulations will make you a stronger person. I am experiencing the most difficult time I have ever had in my life right now. Trying to stay positive is very hard. I rely on prayer and self care

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    1. When I think ‘things could be worse’ then things tend to get worse. It’s a genuine goal of mine to try to not think of the worst. I’ve learned the hard way that when you give it a chance, the world comes up swinging.

      That being said, I’m terribly sorry that you’re experiencing a hard time. I’ve been there, so I know how it feels and I wish that I could give you a hug. Sending love and positivity your direction ❤ This too, shall pass ❤

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  6. There are absolutely ‘days’. Sometimes a succession of them. I read something recently that reminds me of what you have said above : ”You just had a bad day. You do not have a bad life.” Life sucks sometimes…. but it’s actually the circumstances/situation/day – not life as a whole 😉

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  7. Have been going through such days too Vee. It’s the festive season. Diwali, the festival of lights but I’m completely off. Trying myself with baby steps but I can’t people anymore. I just feel too drained and exhausted. Can’t sleep, which makes me super tired and irritable. I just want to smile through this. I hope Vee, we get better. We are not alone. Take care.

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    1. I’ve heard great stories of Diwali. I hope that you’re able to find some sleep and some reasons to smile in the coming days. You deserve it ❤

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  8. There are days when the darkness seems like it will never end. When it feels so all consuming that it’s hard to breath, hard to see anything around me, just struggling to keep my head above the crashing waves. But then there are days when the sunset calms my soul, when my heart beat sings a melody, when the moon is full and bright enough to chase the darkness away.

    Only when the sky is at its darkest do the stars shine their brightest. Keep going.

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