There are days when I struggle to look at myself in the mirror.
There are days when I don’t believe that I’m worthy of anything I have in this life.
There are days when I just don’t feel capable of basic human function. Everything seems too difficult and too complicated for me to even comprehend.
There are days when I wonder what I did wrong to wind up this… scared, selfish and stupid.
There are days when I question everything.
Oh, there are days.
There are days when everything bothers me. People chewing. Rain falling. Wind gusting. It’s all annoying and there’s nothing I can do but just see it through.
There are days when it’s hard to zip my lips and to stay out of it.
There are days when I want to give up, run away, leave it all behind.
There are days when I am so out of touch with myself that I look back and I think ‘who the fuck was that person?’
Oh there are days.
The most important thing to remember through all of this? That without the bad days we cannot appreciate the good. That the good people in our lives, they’ll be there whether we’re in a good mood or a bad. Whether we’re easy to get along with or we couldn’t be trying harder to push them away.
We need to remember that these bad days remind us that we’re human. That struggle is real and that we shouldn’t diminish the value of it when it comes. Because struggle teaches us. It makes us stronger. It shows us what we’re truly capable.
There are days when it feels a though the world is crashing down around me. But those days, as with all things in life, they too shall pass…
Beautifully said. Keep your head up no matter what life throws at you. Persist for along as you exist. Life will eventually get tired of testing you. You will have a wonderful future. Believe it. Work for it and you can have or be anything in life
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You’re quite good with the pep talks. Seriously, this is some A+ motivation here. And I know that sounds cheesy when I say this, but I really loved reading this. It felt like you were my best friend trying to set me straight.
Thank you
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Sometimes all you need are some kind words of encouragement. Kindness is something that must be given with no thought of return. The secret to living is giving. We all fight battles in life. There is always a light in a sea of darkness. You just have to keep fighting
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So true and very well said. It’s good to remember that these days will pass.
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I hope they pass soon. For you, for me, for everyone. It’s time for onward and upward.
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Well-put, V. These thoughts have what I’ve been struggling for months with. Endless days of wanting to cry, tearing up, and crying anyway. Thoughts of dark places and hatred for the world. But there’s no choice but to keep going, keep trying until a silver lining arrives. Might not be what you expected, but it’s an opportunity, and it can lead you to a good place eventually. There is good in the world as much as the bad, and it’s important to keep that in mind when it gets tough. Have faith!
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Oh, I am so there with you. Sometimes I just start crying and I can’t even explain as to why.
I’m trying to remember there’s good out there and hoping that it comes soon. I’ll try to keep the faith. Thank you for your solidarity today ❤
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Yes, true, these days shall pass and love and laughter shall come again. Remember, the stars shine brightest on the darkest nights……meaning life needs bad times too so we can appreciate and value more the good times. 🙂
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I love that quote – stars shine brightest on the darkest of nights… kind of like the shittiest of times show off your true strength. Thank you ❤
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Very uplifting post. Deals nicely with the trials of life and how to win
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Thanks for reading ❤
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So much yes in this. Never give up good and bad days are always apon us but the good will always push through. Loved this read, thanks 🤗
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I feel you today Kasey. Pushing through is the most important thing to do. Thanks for reading and for the pep talk.
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(hugs) ❤
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Thank you ❤
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I hope you feel better soon. I have to admit that 50% of my last blog post was based on things I recalled you saying on here over the last few weeks, and the other half was how I relate to those things you said. You were the shadow muse. You really struggle, but you face it head on and I admire that. Further, you share it here…. and it’s that combination of vulnerability / crazy mixed with desire to be helpful that readers like. I finally articulated your secret sauce. I cracked the code a little.
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Thank You ❤ I don't know how admirable it is, but I appreciate the compliment. I'd say I'm definitely more crazy than vulnerable. haha Good to hear there's a secret sauce. lol
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Edit; actually it was more like 10-20% the muse factor. I just realized it’s a lonnnnng ass post. Don’t ask me why I’m so concerned with accurate math suddenly though :).
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ahhaa it was a long ass post. It took me a few times coming back to it to get it all read.
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It helps to remember that things could be worse and that tribulations will make you a stronger person. I am experiencing the most difficult time I have ever had in my life right now. Trying to stay positive is very hard. I rely on prayer and self care
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When I think ‘things could be worse’ then things tend to get worse. It’s a genuine goal of mine to try to not think of the worst. I’ve learned the hard way that when you give it a chance, the world comes up swinging.
That being said, I’m terribly sorry that you’re experiencing a hard time. I’ve been there, so I know how it feels and I wish that I could give you a hug. Sending love and positivity your direction ❤ This too, shall pass ❤
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Thank you sister!
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Well written. I can very much relate.
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I’m sorry that you can relate, but I’m appreciative that someone in this world understands other than me. Thank you for reading ❤
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There are absolutely ‘days’. Sometimes a succession of them. I read something recently that reminds me of what you have said above : ”You just had a bad day. You do not have a bad life.” Life sucks sometimes…. but it’s actually the circumstances/situation/day – not life as a whole 😉
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You’re right. It’s not a bad life, I just need to find my way back on the right track. I veered off somewhere and it’s circumstance, not life itself!
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You’ll find your way. Looking forward to sharing this journey with you.
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Have been going through such days too Vee. It’s the festive season. Diwali, the festival of lights but I’m completely off. Trying myself with baby steps but I can’t people anymore. I just feel too drained and exhausted. Can’t sleep, which makes me super tired and irritable. I just want to smile through this. I hope Vee, we get better. We are not alone. Take care.
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I’ve heard great stories of Diwali. I hope that you’re able to find some sleep and some reasons to smile in the coming days. You deserve it ❤
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“This too shall pass” – those 4 words have kept me sane during some hellish lowpoints of depression. Love your attitude, V. Keep on keeping on 🙂
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Thank You ❤ They're wise words. Sometimes it's little pep talks from people like you that truly keep me going. So thank you for that.
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The struggle is real. 100%
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I’m sorry! Just remember, this too shall pass.
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Quite relatable.
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That’s my mantra too “and this day too shall pass.” Caz x
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I have those days sometimes too. It will pass but please take care of yourself in the meantime. Your words are encouraging to many.
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There are days when the darkness seems like it will never end. When it feels so all consuming that it’s hard to breath, hard to see anything around me, just struggling to keep my head above the crashing waves. But then there are days when the sunset calms my soul, when my heart beat sings a melody, when the moon is full and bright enough to chase the darkness away.
Only when the sky is at its darkest do the stars shine their brightest. Keep going.
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