I know I’ve said this before, but I’m ready. I’m ready for a sign, a symbol, an opportunity, a reason, an anything. I’m ready for things to change. I’m ready for things to get better. I’m trying so hard to make things better. Please, if there was ever a time, the time is now.
I need to know that something is going to fall into place, that something this year is actually going to work out. I need to know that the hard work isn’t for nothing. I need to know that I’m not wasting my efforts. I just need to know, universe, that things are going to be okay.
Please universe, send up a smoke signal. Anything. Anything at all.
I’ve felt this way many times, but especially in the last two years on my writing journey.
Hang in there!
I wrote a story once about myself as a sheep, wandering ridiculously. You might like it. 🙂
(https://morethanamomhome.files.wordpress.com/2019/09/beloved-a-sheep-ly-story-of-sanctification-by-sarajanekehler.pdf)
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Thank You ❤
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It’s going to be ok V.
Things will work out.
You’ve invested so much energy.
You’ve hung in there.
It’s going to turn out just fine.
We all want you to get a break …. our collective support will help deliver it for you 😎❤️
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Oh gosh, please can it come soon? I’m starting to think it won’t ever be okay and I don’t like that feeling.
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You will be fine. 💑
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Thank You ❤
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I agree that 2019 has been a pretty crappy year so 2020 HAS to be better. The only way from here is UP but I do believe that the universe has plans for both of us. Plus, two crappy years in a row is unlikely. The Law of Attraction is on your side, V. 😇
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2020 is going to be our collective year. I’m putting that out to the universe. We deserve it.
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Yes, we totally do! I believe that you will get your dream job soon. 😇
I pray that I can pass school and get that damn degree. Planning on completing the rest of it in one go even if it kills me. I’ll try once more, but this is it.
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Oh you’re going to pass. Don’t doubt that. I don’t. You’re going to pass with flying freaking colours.
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I should have passed. I was 2 weeks away from finals. All it took was one mean instructor to ruin the entire semester and year. I am paying the price now, for something that could have been avoided (maybe).
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If the universe gave out signs. You’d know what to do at this moment.
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Sometimes the universe does give out signs, I do think that. I just think you never know when they’re coming so it can be really hard to hold on…
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Holding on is like watching a shooting star. You wait for it.
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Hang in there.
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I’ll try ❤
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Oh, I thought I replied to TracyEllen C arson Webb but you hang in there also.
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Hahaha whoops.
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I believe Busker Boy expressed it best.
I know it doesn’t “feel” that way, but you have invested so much and have kept fighting. It will work out. Again, I know it’s probably the last thing you want to hear. But it will work out. You have many people (including me!) who genuinely want the Best for you. If possible, please try to take some time off (even if a few hours) and let your body and soul rest. Hugs.
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I did take a few hours today and took my niece and nephew skating and for ice cream. It was nice to not worry, even if just for a couple hours.
Thank you ❤
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We need to do our best to make positive changes KNOWING that not only we will not see the changes, but neither the next few generations. But we pass it down, the goodness I mean, knowing that the spread will be gradual at first, but eventually become dominant. Most of us won’t even try if we won’t live to see the changes. Which make it even harder to accomplish. Just a thought.
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I’m not going to live long enough to get another job?
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Sorry for the misread. That’s the second one this week! I need a break.
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Theres so many of us looking for those positive signs. I tell myself all the time Ive done the work now where is my rewards form the universe. No answer. So I keep plugging along. I am newly retired so I decided to hand over the working life to those who need it. I realize that for the younger generation you are having a tougher time because the older generation is holding on and that makes for less jobs for you. We are in the process of learning what is too much desire and too little faith. Hang in there and my soul self is sending vibes your way. so be open to what comes even if its totally new to you
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Well, being newly retired I hope that you find something to chase that sets your soul on fire. As a retired soul now, you can chase whatever you heart desires. You deserve it ❤ Sending you love!
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Me too, ugh I’m so ready for the good things coming 🙏😣
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Sending more positivity to the universe for you ❤
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I really need that right now 💖🙏 Thank you so much. Same to you xxxx
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I hope this doesn’t offend but…don’t pray to the universe. Pray to God. He loves you. And he listens. And he answers prayers. Good luck ❤️
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It doesn’t offend me at all. Thank you ❤
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Oh good! I don’t like to force my faith on anyone but you seemed so unhappy and I know exactly how you feel. I’ve been there. I wanted to help. If you need to talk (and by that I mean text…I don’t talk on the phone lol) I am here! You don’t know me but I promise I’m just a regular suburban mom who happens to have been through a lot in life. And I like to give back, whenever I can. So let me know 😀
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I’m not a religious person myself, but I can appreciate what religion brings to people’s lives and the comforts that prayer brings. I would never consider a recommendation of prayer to be a forcing of your faith. I think it’s just you, a kind soul, showcasing your big heart ❤
Also, you sound like a pretty Cool suburban mom to me. Thank you for your offer. I'm a millennial, so I don't talk on the phone either. If I ever need a sounding board though, I'll definitely let you know! Lately this blog has been my sounding board.
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Thank you for the compliment! I just read your tips for beginner bloggers on your site. It was so helpful! You are a talented writer and I’m sure you’re great at what you do at work. I’ve read lots and lots of blogging tips. Yours were my very favorite 😀
I don’t know if I can go to a neutral colored site though! I’m a designer by profession. I put a tremendous amount of energy into the look of my site. I want my brand to be like this: bringing together stories and information about women’s mental health, with love. Some posts are serious because the subject matter is serious. Other posts are fun, silly, humorous because we all need a break now and then. I personally love to poke fun at myself and rarely get offended. Tell me a joke about bipolar and I’ll probably laugh my ass off! Visually, I decided to make it colorful and campy. My logo is a 1950s illustration of a woman laughing. At the bottom where I tell readers to be sure and visit again, there’s a cartoon of a woman screaming. Does that make sense? I’m frustrated though because the theme I chose limits certain things like the color of a button. Or the color of text. The designer in my cringes when I see all that black text! I want grey dammit! I know that’s trivial. Content is what matters. I’m going to focus on writing what women want to read. I’m going to actually look at my analytics. Thanks for the great tips!
So yeah, put a sticky note somewhere that says themoodymom. Contact me any time. Things are going to come together for you because you’re a winner! I know one when I see one ❤️😀💥🙏🦋
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Well this is certainly relatable. I certainly hope 2020 is a much better year for you!
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I hope the same for you, my dear. Seems like you could use something to look forward too as well ❤
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Yours is the only blog I read every day. There it is— a sign from the universe that you should keep writing. The person who told you there is no money in writing is wrong. There is money in anything that is rare and compelling.
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Well, I am not sure why I am so lucky, but thank you for your continuous support of me and this blog ❤
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Sending positive vibes your way! Sometimes the signs were asking for come in ways we aren’t expecting!
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Thank you<3
I hope they come soon! ❤
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You’re welcome!
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Hope is the biggest thing when nothing is going in favor of you.
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Wholeheartedly agree. I’m trying to hold onto the hope for as long as I can.
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My husband’s job moved us from the only place I and my kids have ever known. We were told “it’d be better” nothing has been better… not even close. I’ve lived alone- been a single mother/ sold almost everything we own to get buy- went years not seeing important people in my life- watching my family fall apart- we moved 2 times and being the new person seems great in theory but it’s not, especially for my kids. I quit an amazing job too for all this. My mental, emotional health down the drain- credit down the drain- marriage hanging on by a thread and I lack security, which is the one thing I crave. We’re now going on our 3rd year and soon 3rd move. I’m told this will be it for awhile and this one will “really great for us”….this time will be “different”. I just have Hang in there a little longer.
When you said “the time is now” , I get it. I want to swim but the waves take me under. What I would do for calmer waters. Living life day to day this way is exhausting.
I really hope and pray the universe will start answering your call. The bumpy path will become straight and smooth. I know these times won’t last forever… I’ve walked in darkness before and seen the light again. So I know you will… but damn sometimes the lessons in waiting are terrible and they seem to go on and on.
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I’ve been putting off responding to this all day because each time I read this I start to tear up.
Firstly, I’m so sorry for life taking you through the ringer like it has. I know that isn’t what you were looking for or hoping for as a response from telling your story, but I wanted to say that. Life has a way of knocking the wind out of you over and over and over and damn, from the sounds of your story, it sounds like it’s been doing it for three years now.
While we may not have had the same stories, I know what it feels like to be put through the ringer. Thank you for your kindness and sincerity and sharing your story with me. I hope that life turns around for the both of us. Because I’ve been feeling the waves have been dragging me under for a year now, and you really hit the nail on the head with that line.
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I can send you my Christmas cookies, they usually trigger magical things 🙂
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HAHA! Thank you for the very magical offer. Unfortunately, since my allergy testing in August, cookies haven’t really been something I’ve been allowed to touch. I have celiac disease and lactose intolerance and am allergic to eggs, oats and peanut butter. Which seemingly counts me out of most ingredients that go into cookies… 😦
Since I’m guessing your cookies aren’t made of air, I likely wouldn’t even be able to try any of that magic!
But thank you for the very kind offer. That’s very sweet of you to do.
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Actually, since I am already a Missis Claus for a season, I can share that you are not the olny person with allregies, and I have cookies for everybody, including no eggs and gluten free (and since I was not born in the US, I hate peanut butter).
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Your words mirror my feelings.
I’m so scared.
I need this, I need things to fall in place.
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I’m gonna fly to Canada and give you a massive cuddle.
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Just wanna exhale! Really tired holding my breath all the time but if anyone gets it I think you probably do!
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fingers crossed!
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