Dear Self,
The struggle is real.
It really doesn’t matter what others might say or think about what you’re going through, what matters is what you say and think. And truth be told, they’re not you so expecting them to understand what is happening is, in itself, a bit of a lost cause.
Remember that age old wisdom that says ‘Don’t fix a temporary problem with rash decisions’? Listen to that. You know it’s right. You know that quick thinking, or perhaps even no thinking, isn’t going to fix this for you.
The universe is testing you. And let me tell you IT SUCKS. I know it sucks. Every second of it. But, how you react, here and now, to what is happening, this will have a ripple effect throughout the rest of your life. Act wisely. Accept help where you can, give help where you can and keep going, always.
The hardest part of being in this time and place is that you don’t know when this test will end, when things will fix themselves, when things will be normal. Will they ever be normal? There’s no crystal ball to tell you for certain, all you can use for a guide is hard work and hope. Hope for a better world for you and everyone else who lives in it.
When you really stop to think about it, it’s important to be thankful for the things that you do have. You’re not starving. You’re not on the street somewhere, struggling to stay warm. You have a lot of blessings in your life that are very easy to overlook if you allow yourself to. So just remember, as bad as it might seem, you are one of the lucky ones. Because you are.
Remember how far you’ve come. Remember that this is all for a purpose. And, when it’s over, remember that you’re going to be stronger because of it. Scratch that, you already are stronger because of it. Silver linings, self, you need to remember them more often. Struggle teaches us just how strong we are. Struggle teaches us just how far we can bend without breaking. And last time I checked you were still standing, in one piece and all.
Hold on, self. I promise you better is coming. I don’t have a crystal ball, but I can feel it. Better is coming. I need you to believe that. This struggle won’t last forever. It can’t. You’re stronger than it.
Sincerely,
Me
Most definitely.
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Also, I have been waiting YEARS to hear someone else say this very thing because IT IS SO TRUE!
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It really, really is.
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To borrow from Rev. Robert Shuller:
“Tough times never last, tough people do”!
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That’s Rev Shuller? I thought that was from a song.
Shows how much I know.
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Don’t feel bad, I doubt most of Canada and the States would know that either.
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i needed that more than you know, thank you. ππ»
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Sending you some well wishes and positivity, sounds like you might need it β€
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V….we are speaking the same language sister!! I was literally having the same conversations with myself this morning. I sat down, meditated and reconnected with all the fragmented parts of myself. Life can beat you up and make things seem too heavy. If we can listen to our intuition and feel we will discover what is best for us. It’s easy to get caught up. I would implore you to follow me on social media because at 42 I’ve waited so long trying to please others and put others before myself. I’m imagining you are 20 yrs younger than me my dear lol….I just did a confessional video, in my bathroom, speaking my truth. My handle is @ladysag77
I’m so happy to have stumbled upon you here because we have similarities that I vibe with. Sending you so much love sister ππ
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Thank You β€ The only time meditation really worked for me was a guided medication I did in Yoga once.
One thing I've learned in life is the things that happen to us, the way we feel, the way we understand this world has nothing to do with our age and everything to do with our person. Our intuition hopefully guides us in the right direction, but not always.
I've filmed a couple of videos, but could never bring myself to upload them. I don't know, I just don't have the confidence. I do appreciate your support though, it means a lot. Support on this blog is quite possibly 90 percent of what keeps me going these days.
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I agree with you, age is just a number because I feel 17 eternally. The reason why I started this blog was to define my poems, like a story behind them. I’m an intuitive empath and someone living with Complex PTSD. I believe my mission or purpose if you will is to spread love and kindness because that’s what our world needs.
When 2020 arrived I said, no more hiding or holding back. I force myself to do these bathroom confessionals I call Maria’s Musings. My real name is Maria Teresa Pratico and I want to share my truth because my path has had some unexpected turns and valleys that threatened to turn off my light completely.
Six months ago I experienced a real spiritual awakening on this deep dive into heal myself that I have been on for 10 years. Since then, everything has changed. The motor of anxiety that hard to course through my veins has vanished. If I can inspire just 1 person by my story, I have made a difference. I never want anybody to feel alone or suffer in silence. It’s about connection my dear because we are all connected. We are all the same. Everything I have learned and do is holistic healing techniques after being on psychiatric medication for 15 years. Whatever works for you. It’s really about reconnecting to your soul, your authentic spirit and letting go of what keeps you from that. Sending you love alwaysππ
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You are
So strong Vee. Keep believing. You will get through this.
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Thank You β€
I sure hope so…
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I really needed this. Especially at this time. Thank you!
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Well I hope that your day, week, month and year pick up. I’m sorry you’re struggling. I feel you. I really do.
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Beautiful and wise. Kind and compassionate. With hope and bravery. With impossible is I’m Possible
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I don’t know if I am possible, but i am trying.
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Beautiful. I need to say these same things to myself… Stay strong V! You’ve got this!
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Thank You, my dear β€
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Oh I love this – heed the advice, it sounds wise
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I’m trying. Oh boy am I trying…
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True. I have no words of inspiration. I am simply old. You might find this list of tools for inspiration useful. I just found them http://empress2inspire.blog/2020/01/24/tools-for-recovery/ Best wishes
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Thank You β€
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You’re doing so well having these thoughts, keep going π.
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I doubt that notion, but at least I consider it a good thing that I’m attempting.
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Well said……v
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Thank you β€
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Such a beautiful post. I felt it deeply, because I do go through a period of struggle at this moment. Thank you.
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I’m sorry you’re struggling. Sending you love from afar β€
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I am so proud of you and always inspired by you π
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I have a crystal ball but nothing changes divine timing – when you are ready your opportunity will present itself.
I battle the same and like you I stay strong and remember it is a test. If I get the job of my dreams tomorrow am I mentally strong to see it through? If my mission is to help others find their life purpose can I selflessly give my time and energy and limitless love?
You are Amazing and unique, what talents do you bring to others. Focus on this and you will see more of your strengths π§‘
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We all need to write letters to ourselves. Reminding us of who we are, where we came from, how far we have come. We need reminders, pointers that draw us back to the treasures hidden beside layers of pain, hurt, and defeat. Reminders that sends us messages of hope, to think clear, be clear, and know this present stage is not the end, yet only the beginning to our quest for inner peace. Thank you for that reminder.
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That was beautifully written and makes me relate on so many levels as of right now. But I thankful to be alive and well and that alone makes me know that things will change.
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I needed this today so thank you
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