After all was said and done, everything sold and every dollar earned, unfortunately, I didn’t come out on top. Or break even. I’m trying to not get too anxious about it but it has been really difficult.
The company that I’ve been waiting for a phone call from did, in fact, call. They said their hiring process hit a snag and things were delayed and that they’d be in contact with me when they had made a final decision. Apparently “Urgently Hiring” means “we’ll get to you when we get to you”.
On top of that, given that it’s still cold and flu season, I’ve come down with another cold. At this point in time I’m basically a walking advertisement for what happens if you have a shitty immune system. My family says that I’m being dramatic, but I know my body and my history of catching a cold and winding up with pneumonia so I’m just trying (DESPERATELY) to not wind up in the hospital. I’m feeling pretty miserable though. I’m absolutely one of those people who gets whiny and hard to be around when they’re sick.
My brother left his 90 pound rottweiler here for the weekend. I love the dog, don’t get me wrong. He’s a real gem as far as dogs go. Loyal, sweet, cuddly, absolutely believes he’s a lap dog even though he’s almost three feet tall and weights 90 pounds. But, at 90 pounds, I can’t walk him. He’s too strong for me. The moment we see a dog, he’d be gone and I’d be flat on my face. I feel bad keeping him in the backyard all weekend, since it’s so small, but there’s not much I can do.
I’ve submitted my name for a contract to design a magazine for a company in Alberta. The choice likely won’t be made until the end of the month, though, so that’s not something I can depend on now.
So far, February sucks.
I hope someone has some good news for me one of these days.
The good news is that, despite all the shit you get, you’re still easily one of the most amazing women I’ve had the pleasure of talking to. You’ve made it through loads and will make it through lots more. Here for you every step of the way, my friend.
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I’ll be sure to remember that when I’m living under a bridge.
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I won’t allow that to happen. One way or another, I would help.
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OMG. Can’t get worse… hoping for better news. Come on universe!!
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COME ON UNIVERSE. PLEASEEEEEEEE
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I wish the company wouldn’t mess with your life like that!
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They’re always ‘urgently hiring’ until the process begins, then it takes a fucking year…
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No kidding
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Well, if you get a job in Alberta we’d be closer. I’m in Edmonton. Hopefully something good comes your way soon.
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The plan is to wind up in Calgary, but… you know… with Alberta’s economy it might be 2024 before that actually happens.
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Yeah things are pretty abysmal here too.
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I’m sick as well. My immune system is a little bitch and I’ve been convinced that I have that horrible virus that I’m sick of hearing about. Because I can’t breathe. But no, that’s just my anxiety. SO YAY. I’m totally with you. I too hope that you receive good news soon. Will be sending positive thoughts your way (in the form of awkward hugs, my specialty. LOL).
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I spent half of last March in the hospital after I caught a cold and just couldn’t recover from it. So yeah, I do get anxious when I get sick because I don’t want to go back to that place. I don’t want to go back to being that sick. I understand what you mean when you say anxiety can play a big role.
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I’m so sorry. That must have been absolutely awful. This cold I have seems to be on its way out (hopefully). I hope you start feeling better really soon.
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I hope that you start feeling better too. Being sick is the worst.
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I wanted but was afraid to ask about that call.
On Wednesday night, I was seeing off several young people who were moving away from the Open Door Shelter, where I volunteer. I have no intention to tell you something about these young people being less fortunate because 1) they are fortunate 2) it won’t help you. But I wanted to share something with you from that night.
I said in my post that I am not going to share any details about our conversations with the youth because they were very private. But I wanted to tell you what I’ve said to one young man, whom I am really fond of:). He was telling me how good he feels at the moment, and that his life is on the right track. I told him: there are high chances that at some point, you will fail. No matter how hard you try. Because everybody fails at some point. Because we all are humans. But I want you to remember that if you fail, it does not mean your life is over. Do not give up. Do not give up on yourself, even if you will mess up really-really badly. Even if the most horrible and unimaginable things will happen, please do your best to get back on the right track. I now that in the end you will succeed, because you are an amazing person. Please never give up. And he told me: I promise. Nobody told me that. I promise you; I won’t.
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As much as I am hoping that their ‘snag’ means there’s still a chance… I think it’s time to move onto the next.
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And you’re right – failure is a fact of life.
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You are not alone, and looking for a job is not fun. But you know what, you can do it. Seriously, February sucks it’s almost scientifically proven, March is coming though. Spring is the promise of new life and all the good stuff that it brings.
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God, I hop so.
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Oh I am sorry to read this my friend….hang in there. Anything on Netflix you haven’t seen….I just binged “Tbe Pharmacist” about the opioid crisis in my country. At least you have a furry friend to keep you company! I love animals and I haven’t owned one in 10 long years since my divorce.
Your blog is on fire my friend, always like reading your content😊
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Thank You for the compliment.
I’m not a huge watcher of things. I do watch videos on youtube but that’s largely because they’re short so they can keep my attention. Longer than ten minutes, I usually get bored. I’m more of a reader. I’ve been reaidng a lot lately… just trying to keep myself busy.
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Ah….I get that, my fiance is a huge YouTube guy bc his attention is short but unlike you he can’t read anymore.
Are you into Astrology at all? I can recommend the book I am currently reading😊
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Keep going, one day at a time!
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Trying.
So hard.
Progress not perfection.
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Hope you a speedy wellness and hopefully a jo will open their eyes and hire you. I know this doesn’t give you instant $$. I’m sure the $$ stress is not helping you get better.
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Maybe I’ll win the lottery. Of course, I’d need to buy a ticket. We’ll see, I guess.
Thank you for your well wishes.
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I’m praying for the universe to hurry up and “move” already! (hugs)
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Thank You. Hopefully the universe listens.
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Read more books! That’s what I do when the chips are down. I wish I could tell you something more useful. On a positive note, the laws of statistical probability say you are due for a “win” sooner, rather than later! Hang in there.
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I’ve been rereading books lately. My books have gotten notes in the margins and highlight because I’ve been reading so much!
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Seems a bit much to have to look after a 90-pound Rottweiler whilst you’re feeling so ill and anxious.
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I traded the eight year old niece for the rottweiler. 1)I didn’t want to get my niece sick and 2)I figured the rottweiler would be way less maintenance than my niece. I love her to bits but I don’t have the energy this weekend when it literally feels like I have shards of glass in my throat.
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I’m so sorry, Vee. Hugs.
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Thank you, my dear ❤
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Wish I had something nicer to share with you, But apparently February sucks worldwide.
Just 21 days left, my dear…
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Ugh. I’m sorry it sucks for you too. 😦 Wish I could send you some positivity.
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Sending healing thoughts your way………hang in there V, you’re one tough cookie…..a gluten free cookie of course 🙂
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Ahhhhhhh gluten free cookies would be so good right now.
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Fingers crossed here for you Vee!
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I think that the only thing that makes the so-called “millenials” different, isn’t the fact that you have inherited a shitstorm of economy and environment, but the fact that legislation exists to prevent you from changing it.
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I feel like it sucks too. I had a pretty bad day.
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I’m sorry! I wish I could give you a hug and a piece of pie.
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Thank you.
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Keep going Vee, this earth is a tough of a place, but I’m so joyous because some day like 4 decades from now, I will be absolutely free from the mortal nature, would you like to come along?.
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