One year ago today we were walking across a frozen lake in the heart of the Rocky Mountains. One year ago you were telling me that everything was going to work out, that someone was going to realize how great I was and hire me before I knew it. We’d have the life we wanted and all would be right with the world.
It feels like yesterday.
I feel like I’ve failed you so many times since then.
I feel like I’ve failed myself so many times since then.
Though I definitely don’t deserve it, you’re still my biggest support system and most vocal cheerleader. I really don’t know what I’d do without that.
It’s almost your birthday.
I’m mad that I can’t be there for it.
I’m mad about a lot of things.
But I’m trying to keep going.
Because I know that not much in this world will change if I stand still.
One of these days, things are going to change. It has to. The odds have to fall in my favour one day, right? It just has to.
Yes!! All of this V….keep going, I believe in youππ
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Thank You. I hope I can reach a point where I believe in myself.
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It’s really hard to leave without the person whom you are really connected with. A big hug to everyone who have suffered from this π€
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Full of emotion π
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Sadly. That seems to be my life story lately.
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Aww, sending hugs and all good wishes. xx
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Sending love to you. You are a strong woman and can make anything happen. Good things are definitely coming for you.
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I HOPE SO!
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I know it
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My own bad period felt interminable for most of it, too. Getting through it comes down to multiple crisis point decisions: will I fall out of existence, or keep going for the inner, fundamental me who will one day rise, thrive, and look back on this time with pride and great strength?
(Ok, I didn’t mean that to rhyme at all!)
π¦Ύπ
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I also take inspiration from those great survival/persistence stories, like Nelson Mandela, or people who survived isolation out in the wild.
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You’re a poet and you didn’t even know it.
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π exactly!!
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Lots of hugs and positive thoughts your way! It may not seem like it now but things will get better βΊοΈ
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I hoooooope so. Oh my do I hope so. I am so ready.
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Sending you hugs, and strength. I understand this feeling. Very well. β€οΈ
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Thank you β€
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It will change, keep your chin up. And you haven’t failed, you’re trying, you’re not giving up. Good luck.
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Thank you for the vote of confidence β€
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Huge hugs.
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Thank You
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I love this post. It connects to me as a poem, a story, and a journal entry. The simplicity of how you state your emotions here is touching. I hope all is going well for you these days, keep up with your blogging xoxo
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Thank you so much β€
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