I’m angry at myself. I’m disappointed with myself. I’m sad. I’m frustrated. I’m just so tired. So anxious. So… I don’t even know anymore.
I’m angry at myself. I’m disappointed with myself. I’m sad. I’m frustrated. I’m just so tired. So anxious. So… I don’t even know anymore.
Hey friend. Be strong and check out your own thoughts on your blog. You got this!
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Thank you. Sometimes I need a reminder.
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V, don’t beat yourself up!
You are probably still in the grieving cycle. Then you already have other concerns in your life, so panic attacks will happen.
Remember, just take a deep breath and exhale slowly.
Will be thinking of you friend!
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Agree with this ππ.
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Thank you for the sage wisdom and sound advice. You’re a good friend to have.
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V, you got this and think about some self-compassion here. You’ve been through a lot. Exhale as long and slow as you can then inhale slowly as you can – 4-5 times. Virtual hugs on their way. Caz x
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Thank you β€
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Don’t beat yourself up. My prayers are with you and your family.
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I shall try. Thank you β€
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π€. Why are you angry with yourself?
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an ongoing saga of unnecessary drama that doesn’t seem to end.
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But is it your fault? Are you talking about the events you’ve been blogging about? Because none of that is your fault, of course. Or something else? π
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V, I had a panic attack put in the ER last night. It’s been years! I was humiliated and upset with myself, too. Set backs happen. It’s part of the beast. Lots going on for everyone, you have added stuff on top of it. Panic attacks are the body and mind’s way of expressing exhaustion and overwhelm. One day at a time. Second by second when that’s needed. β₯
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I’m sorry that you had a panic attack and that you had to go to the ER. It’s not a fun situation to be in, I know all too well. Sending you love and strength. These are weird times.
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You, too!!! β₯
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This might sound goofy, but sit quietly, breathe deeply and stare into your third eye (between your brows). Sit for as long as you can maintain steady breathing. Say to yourself, “I am not my body, and I am not my mind”. Try to imagine connection to the universe, this is the true self you must find. I will be giving you strength with my energy. Take care and really try. People love you.
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Thank you β€
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Step 1. Step away from the news.
Step 2. Step away from the internet.
Step 3. Step outside and reconnect with nature. π§ββοΈπ±
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It’s actually not the news that’s really been causing it. It’s the family fighting over my dead uncle’s money. But I do appreciate the advice, thank you for the wisdom.
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Itβs horrible for family to fight over money, and sadly itβs money that tears family apart. Hopefully, your family is able to settle the issue. Thatβs gotta be hard, especially during a time when we need more emotional support than ever. Take a day or two to step away from the drama to do some self-care, whether thatβs taking a walk outside, painting your nails, or finding a quiet place that you can call βparadise.β
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I feel exactly the same way. We are all in this together π
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I’m sorry that you know the feeling all too well. I’m sending you some love and strength. I’m with you through this.
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We are all here for youβ€οΈ
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That means a great deal to me at this stage of my life. Thank you β€
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Hugs, dear Vee. β€οΈ I know you are beating yourself up, and I understand because I do it to myself too, but please donβt judge the panic attack. Youβve enough to put up with it. Itβs ok to be ill. Itβs ok to have panic attacks. Itβs not a comment on you as a person or your abilities. You are under a huge amount of stress and grieving. I know itβs the hardest thing to do at times like this, but please be kind to yourself. β€οΈ
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Thank you β€ I'm not sure why you're so kind to me, but it means so much. You mean so much. Thank you.
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Today I thought: so many people around the world are starting to learn what anxiety and depression actually feel like; hereβs hoping that this makes everyone more empathetic and reduces mental illness stigma. Feel your feelings, then practice all the self-care you can think of.
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I was thinking the same thing today as well!
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This is probably really true. I hope that you’re right, that it does help reduce the stigma around mental illness and the struggles that people feel… the very real troubles they face.
Thank you
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This isn’t your fault. You’re doing your best to navigate some shitty times. Panic and anxiety are to be expected. If you need to talk let me know and I can dm you my email, okay? No pressure. Just know that you’re never alone. π
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You’re a kind soul. I’m more of a bottle it up and pour it out in vague posts on my blog type. But, I will take your email address if you want to give it to me. That way the next time I’m in your neck of the woods (post pandemic) maybe we can meet up for a bloggers lunch or something.
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As long as you have an outlet. That’s key for survival in my book. π I’ll message you through your site so you have my email address. Have a great Sunday!
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Hang in there! Right now things are difficult for a lot of people. You’re not alone and things will get better!
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Gosh, I hope so. Praying for a safer, better tomorrow for the world.
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Sending you some love π
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Love that I am very much thankful for. Thank you β€
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Send you some warm hugs β€ Anxiety sucks ass but please don't beat yourself up. We all love you and are here for you β€
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Thank you, thank you, thank you β€ Hugs from a distance though.. because we don't need to spread any germs right now. Am I right?
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My dear this is not the time to judge yourself. Or down on yourself in any way. This is the time to practice self compassion.
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Oh, that’s a hard thing for me. Always has been. I’ll give it a try though, because I know you’re wise.
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You are amazing. Look at how much good you do.
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Also, I’m fucking Crazy, Vee. I’m not a wise sage. Hahaaaaa.
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Listen to soothing / meditative / spiritual music to calm your nerves down. It’s perhaps the grief coming up differently. Don’t be hard on you…it’s OK to feel all that…but then remember to let it be…it’ll dissolve….much love
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You seem like a wise soul. And a very kind soul. You’re exactly what I envision when I think of Danish Hygge.
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Thank you for your kind words.
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We’re all behind you, Vee. The combination of the relentless news about the international crisis and your family’s recent personal tragedy has put you under extraordinary pressure, and there’s absolutely no need to beat yourself up over this. You haven’t let yourself – or anyone else – down. Thinking of you β€
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Gosh. You’re like a Buddha, so full of kindness and wisdom. I feel like you’re a sacred gem that we need to protect at all costs.
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Life is intense and stressful right now, without even adding in any personal things. Be kind to yourself π
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I will definitely try. I hope you do the same for you, β€
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Hey Vee! Try not to beat yourself up over a relapse into anxiety and panic. There is a lot of scary in the world right now. I’m right there with you, trying to keep my depression at bay. Like someonesaid in another comment, that means I’m stepping away from the news and the internet and focusing on other things. You will overcome!
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π you need to change something, try something new. Have you tried reiki? Here is a link to my teachers site https://youtu.be/SHGDalDt-ro sit back relax and let it flow to you – you said before that you canβt meditate so maybe just begin by taking time to relax. Hope this helps π§‘
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Mother F~ing panic is so rude and unthoughtful, showing up uninvited and being an ass hat. Well, well well, you’re messing with the wrong chick, V is going to kick your ass because she is strong and mighty with one of the biggest hearts on this F~ed up planet.
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These are hard times for us all right now. I hope you feel better soon. I wish you the best.
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It’s so natural to feel this way with what you’ve got going on. Be gentle with yourself. You have a great supportive bunch on here who believe in you. This too shall pass, promiseππ
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I’m 100% with you. I would say don’t be too harsh on yourself, but I’m not taking my own advice so that would be hypocrisy. Thank you for posting this! Sometimes it’s nice to just know I’m not alone.
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Sleep.
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Hey, V! We’re here for you. You’ll get through this.
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It’s a scary time. I think in different ways, we are all having a collective panic attack.
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Hang in there, V. You’ve overcome these tough times before, and you can get through this. Moment by moment. Sending love and hugs your way Β β₯
Caz xx
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Hang in there hun. We’re all here for you and in this together. You’re not alone :).
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Sending you much love and thanks for this.
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Be strong.
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