I’ve been having panic attacks on and off for the past three hours.
I haven’t slept for three days. Not really. I’ve has small naps here and there but I haven’t been able to physically lay down and shut my eyes for any considerable length of time (longer than an hour).
The toll of not sleeping is deep. My mind is exhausted, my body is aching and I have this overarching pit in my stomach that is making it difficult for me to consume food.
I need to be up for work in five hours. Am I going to sleep tonight? I doubt it. Am I going to lay here anxiously trying to slow my brain down and massage my achy muscles for the next five hours? Well at least for the next four.
I don’t know what to do.
I really don’t.
Nothing is working.
I lay down with every intention of sleeping and life… it just fucking has other plans. I’m literally running myself ragged.