New life, who dis?

I woke up this morning at peace… with myself, with the universe, with life. It seems like things might actually be turning around for me. (Knocks on wood) It seems like maybe what I’ve wanted for so long might actually be attainable. It seems like things are good, for a change. (Again, knocking on wood)

It feels a bit like I’ve won the lottery in a sense. I’ve never needed a lot to make me happy and now that I feel like I might actually get all of it, I don’t know how to accept it. Is that weird? I feel like I don’t deserve it.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m thankful. I’m counting my lucky stars. I’m so, so, so grateful. I’m just worried the other shoe is going to drop.

For now, though… I’m just going to enjoy it, appreciate it and soak it all in. Loving my life and the people who are in it.

56 thoughts on “New life, who dis?

  1. Focus on that last few sentences V because you definitely do deserve it! I have lived the majority of my life in hypervigilance and waiting for that damn shoe. It’s an awful way to live and not worth the focus it demands because you miss out on the joy right in front of you!! I’m elated to read about your blessings right time and as your friend I really want you to enjoy themπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ Keep being you and everything you’ve ever wanted will continue to come true, I believe in you😊

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  2. Sounds like a case of Impostor Syndrome. No need to feel ashamed of having success– embrace it! You spent over a year unemployed/down on your luck, and now the tides have turned. You deserve every ounce of happiness, and I can’t wait to see what other successes you achieve down the line. We believe in you!

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    1. It is! It’s crazy how when you’re down everything seems impossible. Thank you, though. I’m glad things are looking up too. Never in a million years could I’ve pictured it being this good as it is right now.

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  3. You know when things have been tough for so long, it is always hard to believe that all this good stuff is happening.

    It is Like a dream. But it is actually happening.

    Well done, enjoy the reward of your hard work and patience. You deserve it.

    Have a good week. And stay positive always.

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  4. Glad you are doing better after last week (and the last year). Please, know I do pray for you when I read your blog – for peace, health, kindness, and more of God. I have lived most of my life waiting for more shoes to drop – there have been many (Deception: Revelation to Release is a book I wrote). It is exhausting live that way, so at 63, I am finally changing my thoughts to enjoyment of each day. I hope it does not take as long for you.

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  5. This is right so. Enjoy the good things that are coming to you and keep being grateful for them. You have been working so hard, you definitely deserve to be happy!

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      1. It was! Lol xD made me laugh quite a lot actually haha.


    1. It’s hard, you know. I’m sure you know. When something good happens, you want to just.. ignore it and continue believing it wasn’t right for you.

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      1. Yes, I know what you mean. I’ve felt that way quite a lot of times lately. It can be really hard to accept good things whilst you’re still anxious.

        Actually this could be a description of imposter syndrome, which I’ve definitely felt a few times in life! After getting certain jobs etc.

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  6. Brene Brown has a great quote about waiting for the other shoe to drop and how we all do it – that β€œOn my God my life is so perfect obviously I am going to now contract a terminal illness” πŸ˜‚enjoy, relax and use your imagination for conjuring up more perfect things instead.

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