I really don’t understand why I am even trying.
Lately I’ve felt nothing but alienated and alone. It sucks. It really fucking sucks.
I really don’t understand why I am even trying.
Lately I’ve felt nothing but alienated and alone. It sucks. It really fucking sucks.
Totally relatable thoughts!
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I’m sorry. They’re shitty thoughts to relate to.
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Hey V, what’s happening my lovely? Email me if you need to 🙂 and big hugs x
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Nothing I can really talk about without violating an NDA. Sometimes I just need to vent. You know what I mean?
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As long as you okay and dealing with the situation my lovely x
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From the way you write, I got the feeling you were doing pretty well, but I think more info is needed. I know about feeling alone and fighting a losing battle, though and you are right about that. It sucks big time. If it starts to get the better of you, time for a change, Either that or just say “fuck it, let’s get on with it.” I’ve done both of those, one time and another, with limited success. Maybe it’s just a bad day? Feel better.
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For the most part, things are going well. Sometimes there are just things in life we cannot control and that we cannot win. I guess I just needed to complain this morning. Thanks for the tip. I said ‘Fuck it, let’s get on with it’. We’ll see what happens, I guess…
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One day at a time, you’re doing awesome V !
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Thank you.
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Keep fighting for the simple yet beautiful little moments in between. ❤
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Hopefully they come soon.
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Stay strong, V. all things pass
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I know you’re right. Sometimes I just need to complain.
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That’s OK, sometimes it’s good to de-compress, and here on WordPress you’re amongst friends.
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You’re so strong Vee and you said the things that we are afraid to say. I bet it took a lot of courage to post this. It’s totally OK to have bad days. And like the previous comment, “this too shall pass.”
Feel free to message me or call me anytime. I’m just a phone call away. Take care 🙏🏻🌸🌸
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Thanks. I know it’ll pass. Sometimes it’s just important to complain so that you can get the thoughts out and they don’t take over your day.
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I’m with there. I’ve stop trying to control a single damn thing.
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I’m sorry that you know the feeling. It’s a gigantic pain in the ass.
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We all have these moments, they ate temporary. Hang in sister! Love you❤
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Yeah, I know. It’ll pass. I just needed to complain.
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Yes, releasing those feelings help so you won’t create blocks😉
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Hang in there… you’re never really alone, but when you feel down like that you can always reach out!! Sometimes a chat with a stranger is enough to turn that frown upside down ❤
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Thank you for the offer. That is so kind of you to suggest and it means a lot. Unfortunately this isn’t really something I’m able to talk about – which is why the post is so vague. I just needed to complain to get it out so that it didn’t take over the rest of my day.
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Not sure if this will help you, but try writing it all out on paper, then ripping it apart. or speaking into the recorder on your phone, listen to your rant then delete it. These have worked for me when I couldn’t speak about something. ❤
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That’s a really good suggestion, thank you. ❤
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Burning the piece of paper can help too.
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Days end. Thoughts change. An incoming mood lifts the corner of a mouth that had forgotten how the simple act of smiling can feel so good, hope you feel better soon.
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I need your mindset.
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I can give it to you my friend – it’s just tools and practice. Email me anytime. 😘
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I’m sorry to hear this and I can relate. One thing I admire about you is that atleast you’re not an alcoholic unlike crazy girl over here. I’m not sure how you deal with your stuff on days like this but I know a lot of people here support you, even if only from afar.
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We all have our vices in this life. Just because I’ve never publicly announced mine doesn’t mean that it doesn’t exist. I say this not to try and compete with your statement, but just to say that you’re not alone. I am with you. And thank you for your support.<3
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We have all been there 💕🌷
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I can definitely tell from the comments I’m seeing today. Hopefully, like all things in life, this will pass.
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I don’t have words. But you’re not alone. Put the fight on hold and take time to take care of yourself.
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Another half hour and I plan to take that advice and disconnect for the rest of the day.
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I have really been enjoying your blogs, you are a fantastic writer, very relatable.
Perhaps you could write about what you think you could do to change this situation? Perhaps seeing it out on paper will make it easier xxx
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Thanks.
I have to give it some thought, really. I’m pretty sure an NDA is stopping me from doing or saying anything. I’m worried if I actually write it down someone will see it and then I’ll be in trouble.
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You are not alone. We are all here for you! Reach out via email if you want to chat more. I’m here for you! xo
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Thank You ❤
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I’m thinking of you, and sending you my warmest thoughts.
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Thank you ❤
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I’m sorry… I know the feeling 😦
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I’m sorry.
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Justice doesn’t always mean closure. It’s okay because it is done. Now. You pick up the pieces and glue them back together.
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I think it’s more of a throwing the pieces into the ocean and hoping they float away kind of situation, but I completely understand the metaphor.
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It’s a Buddhist Dharma. He was the other guy around the same time as Jesus. Instead of miracles, he just kind of sat and laughed and said he was nobody.
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CS Lewis “A Grief Observed.” Is really good. Into The Wild. Anything by Pema Chodron. Unless, you’re not ready to let go then I’m with you either way.
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I emailed you something that might help. Otherwise maybe try some metal and venting.
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Thanks for that email.
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Hang in there, I am hanging in here tk
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Thank you ❤
I hope your day is going okay today!
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all the time I tell you sweety…if you need to vent…DM me…🤷 okay…
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Thanks! Sometimes I just need to complain. It’ll pass.
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I’m so sad you feel this way. I wish and pray that you can push yourself past this. It gets better, trust me. Don’t lose hope.
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Thank you ❤
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*Big hearts*
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Thank you
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Sending good vibes your way. I think there’s a lot of this going around.
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Thank you ❤
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Thinking of you Vee. It’s a horrible feeling. You’re a strong woman though. I believe in you.
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Thank you ❤
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Hi V,
Looking at the comments you have many people who want to help. So that says so much. Understood that it’s a delicate situation.
Stay strong-you have that in you
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Thank you for this ❤ You're a good soul.
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Backatcha ❤️
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Keep after it. Similar boat myself. Keep talking to anyone you can about it, including us on here.
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Me too. And I’m rarely alone in the physical sense…if that makes sense.
Hang in there.
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Trust me, I freaking get it. It’s why I haven’t been actively blogging. But then I guess that’s the breast reason/time to blog. Idk, just rambling about nothing now. Just wanted you know know I do understand. 😞😩😖
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