Scattered recollection of the past couple weeks

Monday, August 9th – The day that I believe I contracted COVID. I had no idea at the time. It wasn’t until much later, that I thought back that this was the point in time it probably happened. It happened at work. We were taking what we thought were necessary precautions.

Friday, August 13th – I woke up with the world’s worst headache. I’m prone to headaches, so I really didn’t think much of it other than how annoying it was. This headache was on a whole different level than regular headaches. Due to the headache, I didn’t go into work. I worked from home, but ended up signing off my computer in early afternoon. I napped on-and-off through the weekend. If I’m being totally honest, I napped most of the weekend. Another thing that I didn’t realize at the time, but is important to the story is, I turned the air conditioning way down in my house (to make it 10 degrees colder).

Monday, August 16th – I still had the headache. It seemed to have only gotten worse over the weekend. Because of the headache, I worked from home. It was a long, awful day that I barely made it through. At the end of the day I sent a text message to Marla and asked her what she typically used for headaches because I was out of options and didn’t know what else to do, short of going to see a doctor. She offered an over-the-counter pain killer called ‘Aleve’ as the suggestion and, desperate to try something new, I went to the store and got some.

Tuesday, August 17th – Headache still lingering, I again worked from home. I got notification from one of my coworkers that they had gotten a COVID test the day before, and that their results had come back that morning and they’d tested positive. Immediately, I became very scared that my headache wasn’t just a headache. I called to find out when I could get tested, and I went and got tested a few hours later. I told the person administering the test that I was fully vaccinated and that, the person who’d told me they were positive was also fully vaccinated. We’d both gotten the same type of vaccine.

*Point of note – several other coworkers also went and got tested on Tuesday, as a direct result of the coworker who’d told us they’d tested positive.

I don’t think I slept at all that night. I was nervous. I was anxious. I had convinced myself that I was going to die. It was an agonizing night. My anxiety was on high-alert and I was in a consistent state of panic.

Wednesday, August 18th – I got notification that I tested positive. I was mad. So fucking mad. I got angry. I threw some things. I cried for several hours. Then I started piecing together the past couple weeks of my life trying to backtrack to where I would’ve gotten it, as well as if I’d possibly been near someone else and could’ve given COVID to them.

All throughout Wednesday we received the news that each coworker who had gotten tested had, in fact, tested positive. Our regular staff group chat became all about our anger, frustration and anxiousness of what could be coming our way.

When each of us backtracked to when it could’ve been that we were all in the same place, we all kept coming back to Monday, August 9th.

During one of the periods of which I was bawling my eyes out, I realized that my headache wasn’t a regular headache, it was early signs of telling me that I was sick with COVID. I also realized that, when I turned the air conditioning down in my house to make it ten degrees colder, it wasn’t hotter outside. My house wasn’t any hotter than it had normally been. If anything it was colder because we’d had some very rainy days. When I was making my house even colder than normal, I was overcompensating for how hot my body temperature was. I likely, at the time, had a fever but I didn’t notice it because I was so focused on my headache. I also had chalked up my tiredness/sleeping for a lot of the weekend to the headache, when in reality, I was too focused on my headache and not realizing that I was very lethargic.

Had my coworker not tested positive, I never would’ve considered that what I was dealing with was COVID. It didn’t cross my mind, because I’m vaccinated. I wear a mask everywhere. I stay away from people, or so I thought I was staying far enough away from people. I was of the belief that if I had COVID, I would have the regular symptoms that people have been talking about for the past year and a half. In reality, because I’m vaccinated, that just isn’t/wasn’t the case.

Friday August 20th – I learned that the COVID was Delta Variant. Immediately I became more nervous then before. I was extremely anxious. My mind spiraled out of control and I cried a lot that day.

And here we are.

I’m doing much better than I was last week.

I am okay. I am still sick, but I am okay. There were several days when I was so uncomfortable and so sick that all I did was cry. Out of fear, out of frustration, out of sadness, out of stress, out of everything.

If there’s one lesson I’ve learned throughout this entire experience it is that I shouldn’t let my guard down. A vaccine is an added layer of protection, not a cure. While I am extremely grateful that I am/was vaccinated, it’s not 100% protection. Due diligence is still required to stay healthy. So long as COVID is running rampant throughout society, I will continue to wear my mask, carry sanitizer with me, obsessively change my clothing if I come home from being out around people, and to guard my inner-circle. I don’t want to deal with this again.

56 thoughts on “Scattered recollection of the past couple weeks

  1. I’m glad you’re feeling better and so glad you are talking about it. So many still don’t believe it is serious. I know three people fighting it now. They’re all young (early 40s and below), though I don’t think any were immunized (I know two weren’t, but the other is the husband of an acquaintance who I don’t know well enough to know, but their whole family got it, even the children, and he is fighting for his life at the moment.)

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    1. I honestly don’t know how people get through it who aren’t vaccinated. I know it hits everyone differently, but I’m utterly convinced that I got it easy, because of my vaccine. Even some of my coworkers who are also vaccinated got it way worse than I did. I can’t imagine being unvaccinated and getting it.

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  2. Yes, vaccine just improves the immunity . It does not stop the virus from entering the body but helps in fighting it and does not allow it to dominate.
    Stay blessed always.
    Get well soon
    🙏🌹🙏

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      1. It does actually do all three things— improves immunity, reduces chance of infection and reduces chance of transmission. Just that it does neither of those things either 100% nor 0%.
        The answer is ALWAYS somewhere in the middle lol.
        https://www.gavi.org/vaccineswork/mounting-evidence-suggests-covid-vaccines-do-reduce-transmission-how-does-work
        “Evidence is increasing that, not only do COVID-19 vaccines either stop you getting sick or substantially reduce the severity of your symptoms, they’re also likely to substantially reduce the chance of transmitting the virus to others.”
        “These studies show vaccination is likely to substantially reduce virus transmission by reducing the pool of people who become infected, and reducing virus levels in the nose in people with breakthrough infections.”

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      2. Oh yes, your’e right it does do all three. Sorry, my point was made into context of the vaccine being a cure versus protection. I apologize for misspeaking.

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  3. Hi I have gone through catching delta variant after being double jabbed. I was lucky that I went to my sailing club eye early on with the new symptoms I was showing. One of the organisers was very familiar with the new symptoms in my case, a fever which I had over one night only, sinus type cold, sore throat which I was developing. I went for a test that evening, positive and spent the next 10 days isolating. After 10 days I was symptom free but now very vigilant of how I feel. There have been a number of examples of other businesses being affected despite being double jabbed.

    So, yes, ongoing vigilance about our health, regular testing available at home here while no clear symptoms which has allowed me to attend a local folk festival, return to opening my shop and today visit my 99 year old mother in law.

    Keep well and vigilant too,

    Andy / Mishmash… on WordPress or / andyknillart on WordPress …

    Sent from iPad

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    1. I’m so sorry to hear that you caught Delta after being vaccinated. Your symptoms sound almost identical to what I’ve been dealing with the past week. Vigilance is so important! Thank you for sharing your story with me. I hope you’re doing much better and have no lasting effects.

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      1. I am much better and taking life pretty normally. Still occasional headaches but hard to distinguish if from covid. I didn’t lose taste or smell senses which was good.

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  4. Glad to read you’re doing better. I wasn’t going to truly worry unless I stopped seeing Twitter activity.

    And thank you for posting this timeline. I, too, am fully vaccinated and have been since February. But I’m still out there working with clients who either cannot or don’t care to take care of themselves or their health the way they should in a pandemic. So I’m still masking and taking as many precautions as I can… but there’s only so much I can do when I transport these clients in my personal vehicle.

    I know the risk is still there, in spite of the vaccine. And I had a bit of a scare last Thursday evening when I checked my temperature and found it was slightly elevated. 99.9 when I’m typically at a 96 or 97ish. I took ibuprofen and went to bed early, already deciding that if I still had any kind of fever, mild or otherwise, when I woke up the next day, I’d call off work and get tested. Thankfully everything was back to normal and I felt fine.

    Part of me questions, though… should I have gone to get a test anyway? Just in case? Like I said, I felt fine and haven’t experienced anything since, so I’ve chalked it up to a psychosomatic deal, since I’d been having so many COVID related conversations with friends and family in recent days.

    Anyway… all that rambling to say thank you for sharing your experience with this thing. It’s different for so many people, so it’s good to hear how a vaccinated individual dealt with it.

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    1. Yeah, I’ve been doing a lot of arguing about the current political structure around here lately. Not much else to do when you can’t get off the couch/out of bed.

      It’s such a difficult thing to contemplate, what you’ve described. When your brain can tell you ‘it could be way worse’ it’s hard to think ‘it’s nothing’, but you also don’t want your brain to explode worrying about it. I don’t know. Should you’ve gone to get the test? I don’t think you can dwell on that now. I think it’s more just a matter of being cognizant of your actions. Does that make sense?

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  5. So glad you’re okay my friend. I think I am finally scared enough to go get the vaccine and have an appointment this weekend. I’m scared of getting it but I’m more scared of dying so I guess it balances. Thanks for sharing

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    1. I’m so happy to hear that you’ve come around to the vaccine. That is such wonderful news. Don’t be scared of the vaccine. Think of it like a tool to help your body stay healthy. Drink lots of water and… if you have access to Gatorade, the electrolytes will help as well. Sending you my best. ❤

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  6. I’m glad that you’re doing better, V. It astonishes me that people who are vaccinated would believe that they’re immune to COVID/Delta Variant. Like, no: you can still get it, and you’ll still feel crappy, so don’t go out freely without a mask and always running around on vacation like the world’s going to end! Any case, it’s scary that, despite you taking precautions, you still got it. At work, of all places. I also work in the office, and I hope not to get COVID/Delta Variant. I do my best to ALWAYS wear my mask and to distance myself from people. We can only do our best with everything that’s going on in the world; I wish you a speedy recovery!

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    1. Yeah, Delta is a hard one because more and more each day we’re learning that the Delta is stronger than the vaccine, so it can still creep through. I really hope that your office stays a safe place to be, hang out. While in the grand scheme of things what I’ve been dealing with isn’t horrible compared to someone who’s unvaccinated, it still isn’t fun and I don’t wish it on people. It’s not a walk in the park. I really don’t want people to get sick. That’s why I’ve been hibernating in my house for so long. I’m not going out until I’m better. Thank you for your well wishes ❤

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  7. I am so glad to hear you are on the mend. It must have been an extremely difficult time for you. With my second shot I developed symptoms as though ill (despite knowing in my head I was not really sick and it was my body fighting the thingies-medical terminology is not my best area) I remember sitting on the floor in the bathroom and crying thinking that I had not been sick like this in forever. And when I got hit with a stomach bug three weeks ago it was the same. However your symptoms would have been exacerbated by be the real thing and the Delta version. Keep up the rest and thank you for sharing your experience as it make us more aware again that we need to keep on top of things 🙂

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    1. Oh, yeah. Did you have a hard time after the second shot specifically? The second shot, I thought kicked my butt when I got it. But the Delta kicked my butt way worse. I’m so sorry you got hit with the stomach bug. Honestly, being sick in any way shape or form right now, with covid so prevalent, is scary. You think ‘Is this COVID?’ and if you’re not thinking ‘Is this covid?’ you’re still thinking ‘Are people going to get scared if I’m out in public?’ I don’t know, that’s what I would think.

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      1. No I understand. The other day a woman was doused in perfume causing me to sneeze several times and then having to reassure everyone it was allergies (nicer than pointing out the overdoused perfume wearer) as people looked at me. Even though I was 100% positive it was a stomach bug I still wondered because I slept off and on and then straight through until Tues from Monday. After the second shot. My first shot I had a sore arm and felt a little off for about 12 hours or so beginning about six hours after the shot.
        Much like yourself I thought I was doing everything possible and yet it (the bug) slipped through. Just proves we must remain diligent. 😊💜

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  8. Yes indeed, if a vaccine only reduces symptoms and prevents serious illness/death then it’s a success, or any other treatment. Just got to remember those are the criteria/motivations behind them.

    Sounds like it was just as well you were double-vaccinated! You mentioned before that you had an immune system thing. The covid symptoms have evolved over time with the changing variants too.

    Anyway this was a really informative timeline from the perspective of someone who’s been through it! And a good lesson that covid is still not worth getting even if you’re vaccinated, if you can avoid it!

    Oh also if you’re going to get it, better to get it closer to being vaccinated since the protection wears off, so all in all you probably timed it the best you could’ve.

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    1. Vaccines are so, so, so important to this equation. Vaccines are keeping people from winding up in the hospital. I truly believe that’s why, I mean I know I’m whining about this, but I didn’t wind up in the hospital. In the grand scheme of things, I probably had it pretty mild. I believe that to be because of the vaccine.

      I got the Pfizer vaccine. My coworker who got AstraZeneca, they’re in their 60’s and COVID has literally been kicking their ass. Even the difference they’ve been dealing with compared to me, it’s scary!

      Yes, I caught it. That sucks so much. But, I’m thankful I was vaccinated so it wasn’t as bad as it could’ve been.

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    1. I think the mental struggle that it caused made it so much worse for me. I know I’m someone with anxiety and panic issues, so perhaps people who don’t struggle with that would’ve been a lot more calm about the whole scenario and it wouldn’t have seemed quite as bad as I make it out to sound.

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      1. Yeah exactly, that’s what I meant :), your overall experience of it including the physical and mental effects. You shouldn’t talk down your personal experience. It’s a shame that you’ve been conditioned to do that, it’s a hard thing to unlearn. But what you described made it very clear, for you to end up crying and throwing things and major depression. Awful.

        Anyway, the physical symptoms alone definitely didn’t sound fun either.

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  9. Glad you are feeling better. Take your time getting back to “normal” life and activities. I had COVID in January, before anyone was vaccinated, and I totally understand the anger, fear, panic, etc. I’m fully vaccinated now and sometimes I still deal with these feelings.
    Good luck to you, feel better soon.

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    1. Oh, January would’ve been a really hard time to test positive knowing the vaccines were rolling out at that point. Have you seen any longer-term effects from it?

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      1. I was REALLY exhausted for about a month afterwards, and I had some pretty bad brain fog for a few weeks, which apparently is pretty common in 20 and 30 somethings who have had the virus. I also used to have a really powerful sense of smell, which I think has diminished a bit. But all things considered I think I’ve come through okay.

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