Sending off job applications because I cannot sleep.

I applied for a job with a larger company that has offices in several cities across Canada. When the application was completed I got a notification that said:

“Thank you for applying for the position of —— ——- with ——— Company. Please check out our other vaccines by clicking here”

VACCINES.

VACCINES.

Not vacancies. Vaccines.

Who? What? How have they never noticed this ridiculous mistake of words? Has no one ever told them? Or have people told them and they just don’t care?

Naturally, I need to go to the ‘Vaccines Page’ to see what’s there. First thing I read at the top of the page is ‘Current Vaccines with ——– Company’.

lol

My first task I do when I get this job is teach the difference between a vacancy and a vaccine.

I’m struggling tonight.

I’m lamenting over opportunities missed, opportunities passed and opportunities forgotten.

I’m having trouble just… existing right now. I feel bad. We all have our days, and I know this will pass, eventually. I just… wish I could avoid times like these. I wish that I was happier with where I’m at with my life.

Honest thoughts: all I want to do is crawl into my bed and cry.

I’m not even anxious. I’m just… doubting myself.

How do I make an employer see the talents that I possess could be of great benefit to them when several hundred people are applying for the same job? How do I make myself stand out? I know that in person I can stand out, but somehow, I seem to keep falling short.

I’m trying to not beat myself up. I really am. I’m just trying to figure out where I am lacking. Why do I keep making it to the final step and falling short?