Note to self:

If you’re feeling frightened about what comes, don’t be. Embrace the uncertainty. Allow it to lead you places. Be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness; don’t waste time with regret. Spin wildly into your next action. Enjoy the present, each moment, as it comes, because you’ll never get another one quite like it. And if you should ever look up and find yourself lost, simply take a breath and start over. Retrace your steps and go back to the purest place in your heart… where your hope lives. You’ll find your way again

Just keep going.

Day 18: Tough times don’t last, tough people do.

You learn a lot about someone by seeing how they deal with the shit that life throws at them. They learn a lot about you when they see how you deal with the shit that life throws at them.

I’ve learned a lot about the people in my life the past few weeks. Who’s important to keep around and who I just need to let go of.

I hate 2019, so far. Hate it. There’s been nothing of note that’s been good for me, so far as I can see. And even though I am well aware I’m stuck in a negative headspace at the moment (so my views are definitely skewed), I still stand by what I say. 2019 is kicking my ass.

I’m learning a lot about myself, though. I’ve learned that even when I think it can’t get worse, it can. And I’m also learning that even as things seem to be getting worse by the day, I can deal. I can deal with it so far, at least. I think that’s the most I can hope for at this point in time.

Starting over is necessary at this point. The problem with starting over is that I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know which way to turn.

If the universe were paying attention, I’d love for a sign. A sign of where to go, or who to see, what to do or who to be. If the universe is litening…

-V