International Women’s Day

She wasn’t doing a thing that I could see, except standing there leaning on the balcony railing, holding the universe together.”

JD Salinger

I would like to dedicate this post to my mother who is currently undergoing treatments for cancer. She is a lover and now a fighter, a warrior and the strongest woman that I know. Thank you, mom, for always being the light at the end of the tunnel and for always holding the universe together. I am so proud to be your daughter.

Here’s to all of the badass women in this world who continue to push us forward, make us better and make the universe more. I am forever grateful to know you, to love you and to aspire to be like you.

Who are the women and girls in your life that you admire? Who do you aspire to be more like?

Habits of the highly successful.

  1. Wake up early. Whether it’s Michelle Obama, Oprah, Bill Gates, Richard Branson, or whoever you want to look up, each and every one of them seems to share one thing in common – they like to start their days while the rest of us are still sound asleep. Perhaps all of that extra time and productivity is something we should all consider.
  2. Take full responsibility for your life. Even though you can’t always control what happens to you, you can always control how you respond to those events. Choosing to respond in a positive way will lead you down a more positive path for your future.
  3. Be continuously learning. Successful people are all aware that in order to maintain their success they must continue to learn and grow with the world around them. Many successful people, Bill Gates, Elon Musk, Richard Branson, all speak of reading every day as a means of continuous learning. And why not? Reading is one of the easiest ways to learn.
  4. Know your priorities. Furthermore, do the most important tasks first. If you always know what your priorities are, you’re never going to waste time questioning what comes next. It’s also better to be effective on the right task than efficient with a smaller, less meaningful task.
  5. Make health and exercise two of your priorities. Research has suggested that a healthy diet and exercising every day can lead to higher levels of productivity and less time felt being sluggish and lagged down by your environment.
  6. Have discipline and self-control. Successful people know what they want in life and they’re not going to get distracted along the way by a fear of missing out on what could be happening around them.
  7. Leave your ego behind. Successful people check their ego at the door to ensure that the success of their goals is achieved over any pride that might occur in discussion. What they desire is far more important than their pride.
  8. Embrace failure. Successful people take their failures and learn from them. They don’t make the same mistakes once because they turn their failures into growth.
  9. Show up. Even when you don’t want to, show up. Successful people will show up, they will woo, they will talk and take names and network and will always take the opportunity for the experience.
  10. Don’t compare yourself to anyone else. To be successful you must be far more focused on yourself then on anyone else in this world. If you truly want something. If you truly dream of an empire, don’t compare yourself to anyone else. What you’re building isn’t what they’ve built or what they’ve done. Go your own way, be your own person and don’t compare yourself to anyone.

February air.

Cheers to the people in this world making a success of doing what they love and making a love of being successful. 

Cheers to the men and women, boys and girls, who’ve realized they’re not perfect, and that’s alright. 

Cheers to the insecurities, the struggles, the second thoughts and the what-could-have-been’s. For without them, you wouldn’t know what you truly appreciate in life.

Cheers to raw, unfiltered, electrifying satisfaction that takes over when you stop living for them and start living for yourself.  It’s like you’ve been struggling to breathe for so long that when you’re finally able to stand tall, clear your throat and breathe in the crisp clarity of the air, you wonder what took you so long.

Cheers to the honesty, the sarcasm and the laughter. The things that truly complete us, and the reasons to continue forward, even on the worst of days. Just keep going.

Day 31: Officially of no-fixed address.

It’s not as bad as I thought it might be. I used to think people were crazy if they had no desires to tie themselves down. And I realize that it’s only been a few hours, but to a certain extent, I am feeling very free.

For so long now I have tied my identity to my career. I lived in a crappy little apartment (that rent was extremely overpriced for) for too many years because I told myself that it’s what I needed to do for my career. My job was what mattered and I was going to do what it took to maintain that. Now that I have no job, nor an apartment, I’m relishing in the fact that there’s more to life than what one does to make a pay cheque.

I still want to work, don’t get me wrong. I desperately want to work. I’m over and done with settling, though. The shit that happened in 2018 is going to stay in 2018.

I had an economics professor in University that used to frequently tell us there are three C’s in life that matter: choice, challenge and change.

“You’ve got to make the choice to accept the challenge to make a change,” he would boast, captivatingly, from the front of our lecture hall.

Well, I’m making the choice to accept the challenge. This year I want to find a career that will make me happy. This year I want to find a home that feels like a home, and not just a place to sleep. This year I want to travel. And most of all, this year I don’t want people in my life who are going to drag me down.

I have roughly 10,000 dollars in my bank account (luckily), desire in my heart and wanderlust in my soul. There’s 11 months left of this year, it’s time for me to make something good of it. 2018 is staying in 2018.

Here’s to bigger and better things. And, hopefully, no more whining to the internet.

A note to self.

Listen to me: It is okay to be a mess. 

It’s okay to have thick thighs and lots of questions and crumbs in your bra. It is completely alright to fall too hard, to feel too much and to overthink everything. 

You can be too scared to move out of the place that you hate, you can be too stubborn to ask for the help you need and you can be too shy to make a move, hang on a little longer or hear those words. 

Do not tell yourself to be to be quiet. Do not tell yourself that you’re too wild, too forgetful, too stupid or not good enough. You need not sit and wait and do as they please. 

Be sharp and shy, and a lazy bum in your bed every weekend. Be thoughtful, and sentimental but never regretful. Be the kind of person that looks herself in the mirror to see the good, not the bad. 

May that cackle remind you the sun will come out tomorrow and may that kindness remind you that even when they don’t deserve it, you will be bigger, better, not once second guessing that choice. May that pocket-full of sarcasm guide you through the worst of days and brighten the best of days.

You are a complex creature with a pinch of this and that, pastels and petals. There will always be more layers than meets the eye, for you are not one thing, but a whole fucking gallery of complexities, conundrums, insanity and happy.

It’s completely abnormal to be abstract and absurd, barely there and all-in at the exact same time. And you, you do it well. It’s what you are. So alive it makes your eyes water, your lip twitch and your heart beat.

So hear me when I say this, because I want you to really listen to me. It’s okay to be a mess. Be exactly what you need to be, and want to be. It will always be good enough.