Hey Universe, if you're listening.

I have a phone interview tomorrow, for a really awesome position with a really awesome company, that starts in January. Universe, I don’t know if you’re listening or not, but if you are, how about you work some of your magic? I’ve seen you do it before and I could use some of it right about now.

It’d be awfully nice to have a new job to go to in 2020. Awfully nice indeed. Dare I go so far as to say it would make me have a very merry and happy Christmas? Because I really think this position could change things for me. I really think it could make me a better me, a new me, a happier me.

Is that selfish of me to ask for your help? I think that’s selfish of me to ask. I don’t care though. A girl’s gotta get her turn eventually, and this, this could be mine!

Universe, I would like this job. Not one three months from now, or six months from now, I want this one.

I would be so happy if they could like me enough to give me an in-person interview. I know once they met me they wouldn’t want to pass me up. I just need them to give me the in-person.

Goodness, I hope this goes well tomorrow.

Sincerely, A hopeful soul.

Happy Birthday, G!

Today is Geneva’s 30th birthday. (It is now midnight on the West Coast, and since she lives in the same time zone as me, it’s officially her birthday.)

Geneva is one of the kindest, sweetest, most wonderful people that I’ve met on this website since starting my blog. And, as I’m sure you’re all aware, turning 30 is a very big deal.

Please join me in wishing her a happy 30th birthday today! Geneva’s blog is here: https://gcerrato.home.blog/ if you would like to stop by and send her well wishes for her special day.

Thanks for reading, thanks for wishing her happy birthday.

Happy Birthday, G! Welcome to the 30’s club. Trust me when I say this, you’re going to love it.

A doctor, some updates and still no answers.

I had a follow up appointment with the ENT (Ear Nose and Throat) specialist today. After taking 9 months to get to him (referrals take forever in this part of the country) it’s so nice being able to book follow up appointments so quickly.

Where we last left off – I’ve had a sinus infection and several other mysterious ailments since November of 2017. The ENT Specialist made a referral for me to get a CT Scan so that he could have a full view of the inside of my head. The scan was done two weeks ago, so today, I went for the results of the CT Scan, hoping and praying that something was wrong on my scan so at least we would have something that was fixable.

My CT scan is perfectly normal. According to him, looking at my scan looks like a normal scan of a perfectly normal human being.

This obviously upset me quite a bit because I’ve been struggling for quite a while. And, he can see that I am struggling. He let me know that he sees I’m struggling and he wants to make me better. When he tried to stick his laparoscopic camera up my nose to see what was going on, he could not because it was too swollen.

Thankfully, the ENT specialist is not quitting on me. He proclaimed that he knows something is wrong with me and he will get to the bottom of it if I have to keep coming back to see him every month. Which, thank you! Thank you so much. I have finally found a doctor that agrees something is not right and needs to be fixed.

He’s scheduled me for some AutoImmune – Blood Tests for next week. (Thank you to DomesticatedRambler for suggesting that on a previous post I made to this blog) The ENT suggested that if this is something autoimmune related, the blood markers test he’s sending me for could explain a lot.

He’s also scheduled me to have a full scale allergist appointment in a couple of weeks. The test is not just a blood test (like I’ve had in the past), but instead, a full fledged allergen test where they prick you with the allergen and tape the area of your skin to see where your body/blood reacts and where it doesn’t. Apparently it tests for up to 250 allergens, so it involves getting poked by needles 250 times. Sounds like fun! Not! But, if it helps figure out what’s wrong with me, I will be grateful.

The ENT also referred me to a new medication for sinus infections called ‘Rhino Rinse’. It’s not something I’ve ever had before. He says you need to get referrals for it and then told me that it would be covered by my insurance. When I mentioned to him that I was presently unemployed, and thus without insurance, he gave me one. He just gave it to me! He said the units could be quite pricey and he does’t want me to have to pay for it if he’s not even positive if it will help me or not. How nice is he? So amazing!

I left the appointment today with him saying “I know you’re not feeling good, I know you’re struggling. I can see it. I am going to do whatever I can and whatever is in my power to help you feel better. We will get to the bottom of this, so please don’t give up.”

It’s like he knew exactly what I needed to hear but didn’t want to ask him to say. Nevertheless it made me tear up when he said it. I’m just so thankful to have found a doctor who is helpful and doesn’t pass me off as a hypochondriac.

I have a follow up with the ENT on April 11. At that time he will provide me the results to my AutoImmune blood work and to my allergy test. Here’s to praying that at least one of those shows something. Anything! If I know what’s wrong I can work to fixing it. I just need to know what’s wrong.

Whew, this was a lot to say. Heading to bed now.

Rest easy, world. ❤

The struggle is real today.

Every time that I let my mind fall blank for a moment… every time… I am overcome with anxious thoughts, an anxious heart and an extremely anxious soul.

I can’t control my thoughts.

I can’t.

I’ve had two clonazepams today and my heart is still racing. This is the feeling I wish that I could explain to those that don’t struggle with anxiety. This is what I wish they could understand. Nothing needs to be overly wrong, it’s just… some days are worse than others. Some days it’s harder to leave your room. Some days it’s all you can do to just be alive.

I know this. I do. And I know that if I jut give myself some time I will eventually calm down. At least I hope that I will. But for the time being, I need a distraction. I need something to put my mind towards. I need a project. I need to make myself busy so that my mind doesn’t have time to get the better of me.

Any suggestions?

Travel Diaries: I left my heart in the Rocky Mountains.

There’s a song by Joe Walsh called Rocky Mountain Way. The first line of the song, ‘spent the last year Rocky Mountain way, couldn’t get much higher’, aptly describes my feelings towards this perfect part of the world.

I still remember the first time my parents took us into the mountains. Growing up with the pacific ocean just minutes from my front doorstep, I’d never experienced anything close to the majestic nature of the mountains before. And the Rocky Mountains, they’re like any other on earth.


I’d never seen anything so beautiful in my life. I remember sitting in the car getting lost in the views outside the window. Anywhere you turn. Everywhere you turn. Seeing snow in June. Seeing elk walking down the sidewalk as though they’re humans. Those four days will forever stand out in my mind as my favourite holiday ever taken with my family.


I have stood/sat at this lake shore in every season under every type of weather imaginable and it is always the most beautiful sight I have ever seen. That being said, Lake Louise definitely has a certain je ne sais quoi about it during the winter months.

Being able to walk out on the frozen lake and look back at the shore is an experience everyone should try in their lifetime. It’s something so small, but it means so much when you’re doing it. And, if you happen to catch Lake Louise in late January you can see some incredible ice sculptures built on the lake each year as a part of the Ice Magic Festival. Info here: https://www.banfflakelouise.com/ice-magic-festival

Things to do in Lake Louise:

  • Lake Louise. That’s it. Just go see it. You have to. Sit at the shore. Walk around the lake. Take the horse-drawn carriage. However you do it, just go.

If you carry on down the highway to Banff you will find the tourist mecca that is (quite possibly) the most known of Canadian town in the country of Australia. Banff caters to tourists. Amidst the big chain stores (that normally are only found in larger city centers) there are tiny little one-of-a-kind cafes and shops where you can truly find the spirit of the mountains.

Highlights of Banff:

  • The Rose and Crown – incredible food and has some really fantastic staff.
  • Banff Ave – This is the most photographed piece of Banff. Main street is worth the wander, just to see what kind of treasures you can find.
  • Mount Norquay – Head up Mount Norquay to see some incredible views of the town from above, and, of the landscapes surrounding Banff in the national park. Info here: https://banffnorquay.com/

Now, Canmore. Let’s talk about Canmore. Do you remember when you were a kid and your parents would read you storybooks about perfect tiny little towns where everyone knows everyone and everything is good? Those books were written about Canmore. Well, maybe not. But, if ever there were a town that could have served as motivation for those books, it would be Canmore, a tiny little town of dreams in the mountains.

When you wander into Starbucks you see the barista wearing a nametag that says “Songbird” and you’re quickly reminded of the slower pace of life that comes in small towns.

Don’t get me wrong. Canmore is a resort town. There are some incredibly breathtaking places to stay in Canmore. The thing that I love about Canmore so much more than Banff, though, is that it’s less touristy. It’s more home-y… if that makes sense. Everything seems to be within walking distance from you, and even if it isn’t, you want to walk anyways because the views are so breathtaking.

I love Canmore. I’ve been 15,000 times in the past six years. Okay, that’s an exaggeration, but truly, if I could have been 15,000 times, I probably would have. Take a hike, take a bike, see the galleries, eat the food, be at peace in this tiny little town in the Rockies.

Must see in Canmore:

  • The Drake Pub – Trust me, you won’t regret it.
  • Dogsledding – Do it. Epitomize what it means to be in winter. Info here: https://howlingdogtours.com/our-tours
  • Golfing – Stewart Creek Golf & Country Club is one of the most incredible courses I’ve ever had the privilege of golfing. If you’re a golfer and you visit in summer, check it out. Info here: http://www.stewartcreekgolf.com/