Adventures in job hunting: a kind, but annoying, rejection.

Last week I had a phone interview with a company in Calgary that came up last minute. I hopped on the call and actually got to talk with the Company CEO for the interview. It was a great conversation and I was really happy with the way it went. I genuinely thought I had a shot.

When I have good interviews, I don’t like to talk about them because I don’t want to allow myself to get my hopes up. Rejection is so much more heartbreaking when you’ve allowed yourself to get your hopes up. So, for the most part, I try to put these things to the back of my mind to make sure that it doesn’t take over each day.

On Monday, I got an email from the CEO letting me know that I was not being selected for further consideration for this position. They thanked me for my time and suggested they received over 150 resumes for the position and have now chosen their final five candidates and I was not one of them.

I genuinely liked and appreciate this company and how they were conducting their hiring process, so I decided to email them back.

I thanked them for their time, told them I appreciated the opportunity and that I hope they find the candidate who will bring the most value to their office. It was all very professional, very kind.

I run into so much bullshit and so much nonsense in job hunting that when I stumble upon a hiring process that’s actually straight forward and proper, I desire to let said company know.

I wasn’t expecting a response. I really, genuinely just wanted them to know that I appreciated the consideration.

Later on Monday I received a response from the CEO thanking me for the kind email. Something she said, that I wasn’t expecting, was ‘You were in our top 10 but seeing as you’re not local, we weren’t able to consider you any further’.

Basically… you don’t live in Calgary… so even if you were the best for the job, we’re not considering you.

It sucks.

I told them I was willing to move. I told them my motivations to move. I cannot be the first person in the entire world trying to find a job in a new place… can I? (I say this facetiously)

I’m struggling tonight.

I’m lamenting over opportunities missed, opportunities passed and opportunities forgotten.

I’m having trouble just… existing right now. I feel bad. We all have our days, and I know this will pass, eventually. I just… wish I could avoid times like these. I wish that I was happier with where I’m at with my life.

Honest thoughts: all I want to do is crawl into my bed and cry.

I’m not even anxious. I’m just… doubting myself.

How do I make an employer see the talents that I possess could be of great benefit to them when several hundred people are applying for the same job? How do I make myself stand out? I know that in person I can stand out, but somehow, I seem to keep falling short.

I’m trying to not beat myself up. I really am. I’m just trying to figure out where I am lacking. Why do I keep making it to the final step and falling short?