What do you want for Christmas?

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I find this question really interesting to ask people because there are so many different ways a person can approach this question.

There’s people who’ll say “a million dollars” and people who’ll say “I don’t want a thing”. There’s people who’ll say items that they really know and love, and people who’ll provide practical options they know that person can afford. Some people even ask for donations to be made in lieu of gifts.

Honestly, to me, what people provide as an answer tells me a lot about who they are. Not that any one answer is better than another. Well, perhaps some answers are better than other’s. If you told me you wanted to kick a puppy for Christmas then I’d think you’re a bad person But, that was a huge tangent and I should get back on track. For the most part, when people answer this question, I really think it tells you a lot about who they are. I read a lot into what people ask for Christmas.

Me? People look at me oddly when I say it, but I tend to tell people that I want the staples for Christmas gifts. Shampoo, conditioner, body wash, toothpaste, makeup remover… these types of things. Is that weird? Possibly. My thoughts behind it is, if people give me these things as gifts, and I can use them for the next 3-6 months (or longer depending on what they give me) then that’s expenses that I don’t have to worry about. It’s practical to me. And I think that’s really thoughtful. I mean, whoever buys me those things are going to be giving me something that I’ll like and get use from.

Decorative blankets are great and all but there’s only so many of them a girl needs, ya know? And heavens, I’ve got enough clothes, shoes and accessories. I don’t need any more. Of course I’m always thankful for someone thinking of me, but if someone is going to go ahead and spend their money on me, I just hope they’d take me seriously when I say I want thinks like shampoo and toothpaste, etc…

I’m curious to know, what do you want for Christmas? Are you the ‘ask for everything’ type? Are you the ‘ask for something I know they can afford’ type? Are you the ‘I don’t want anything’ type? Or do you prefer experiences over tangible gifts?

Day 11: Holding strong.

Time goes by so quickly when you get older. When you’re four years old, all you have to compare time too is within those four years. As you grow older, you’ve got more to look back on, more to contemplate, over-analyze and before you know it, you’re wondering where it is that the time went.

At certain times, it’s a good thing to have time go by so quickly and certain times, it’s bad. When I’m in pain, when I’m hurt or down or disappointed, having all the time in the world to feel the severest extent of what it is that I am going through, well it would be better if it could just pass. Then I have those days, like I’m sure everyone does,  where I find myself sitting in my bed at night wondering why it was that those moments I was so thankful for just couldn’t last a little but longer than they did when I had them.

Reflection can be both a good thing and a bad thing. Time brings emotions. Moments alone, lost inside my mind  bring thoughts of the past and thoughts of my future.

I look at my niece and nephew and I’m so thankful for the innocence that I can see in their eyes. If I can do one good thing in my life I can only hope it’s that I can allow them to have their innocence as long as possible. I can only hope that one day when they’re walking in the rain they can truly understand what it was I was trying to do for them and know that it’s simplicity masks the complexity of the situation, and my heart.

The sky is blue as the ocean on this clearest of days. Coincidentally so, it mirrors the way that I feel. It’s so hard to keep focus with no direction in the abyss.