Tonight seemed like a really great night to look back on the resolutions that I made for myself at this time last year… before the reality that was 2020 hit all of our lives.
The gist of last year’s resolution is in bold. My explanation of how well or poorly it went follows.
I want to be more aware of time. This is a resolution that I genuinely feel I accomplished in 2020. While it was likely forced on me because of the pandemic, I do feel that I am now, more than ever, aware of time. The time I take, the time I make, the time I kill and the time I waste. I’m more aware than ever of how much time I both have and don’t have and why time is both my best friend and worst nightmare depending on what day fo the week it is.
I want to love and appreciate myself. I’m going to say that I got half-way there in 2020. While I love and appreciate certain aspects of myself, I still have (and probably always will) major insecurities. There are parts of my life where I’m too confident for my own good and parts of my life in which I’m a shell of a human being. Overall, progress was made, but there’s more room for growth.
I want to proofread my posts before I hit publish. I epically failed at this. I genuinely write my posts as they come to my head. I know that it sounds like an excuse, and that’s because it is one. If I worried about checking my spelling and grammar before publishing, I’d never get anything published. My spelling and grammar sucks. I’m okay with that.
I want to put myself ‘out there’. I started working and lost both time and motivation to make this a project for me.
I want to take better care of myself, my mental health and my well being. While anxiety is still a massive issue in my life, I’m happy to say that I cut a lot of sugar out of my diet. I still do believe that my body is a temple and that I need to treat it a lot better than I do, but I’m accepting of the fact that I am a work in progress and that quitting Pepsi and Redbull might not be in the cards for me. Though I definitely can cut down on it a lot.
I want to learn more about photography and how to take beautiful photos. I took two courses in photography and one course in editing this year. I’m not sure if everyone would think the photos I take are beautiful, but I definitely do.
I want to go somewhere that I’ve never been and experience something I’ve never done. Pre-COVID I was too broke to go anywhere I’ve never been. Since I’ve started working, I’ve been playing it safe and not going new places because, I both don’t want to get sick and I don’t want to make anyone else sick. This might need to be a plan for 2021… if vaccines roll out by the end of next year.
I want to teach my friends and family of the importance of sustainability and making eco-friendly choices. I’m really proud of how far my friends and family have come with respect to making sustainable and eco-friendly choices. I think having an open dialogue and teaching one another about waste accrual and hyper consumerism and the negative effects they have on the planet really made the people in my life take positive changes. It’s amazing to see.
I want to reach a point where I no longer need to worry about money, or how I will afford things. I am not there yet, but I am trying.
I want to spread kindness to whomever I meet, wherever I go. I truly believe that you can never give too much kindness. We all have our bad days, I know I’ve certainly had mine, but through it all I’ve tried to do good by those I’ve met.
I want to test out Vessi’s Waterproof shoes to find out if they’re actually as good as they’re hyped up to be. I got these for my birthday and they are AMAZING. I am so glad that I own them. They’re a pricey item, but if they are within your budget, I highly recommend.
I don’t ever want to spend another New Year’s Eve alone. Epic fail on this one.
With all that’s happened in the past 12 months, I’m really not sure if this year was about openness, honesty, generosity and goodness in the way that I had hoped it would be. But, I still have hope for this world. And at the end of the day, I definitely still do want everyone to remember that you cannot do all the good that the world needs, but, the world does need all the good that you can do.